By:
Stacy L.
Gary ran out of
McGinty’s quickly surveying the area. He glanced to his left then to his right.
He could see Amanda’s rapidly retreating form half way down the sidewalk so he
took off running to catch up with her. Finally, when he caught up to her, he
grabbed her gently. She screamed prompting Gary to yell, “Amanda? Amanda? It’s
me! It’s Gary. Amanda, look at me! Look.”
Just then she did
but as her haunted frightened eyes looked into his he had an incredible sense
that she wasn’t seeing him. Gary calmed his voice fearing if he didn’t that
he’d panic her further. He hushed his voice and gentled it then tried to get
her attention again, “Amanda? Amanda, it’s Gary. Gary Hobson. Please look at
me. Amanda, it’s Gary. Please look at me.”
She choked out,
“Gary?”
“Yes it’s me.”
“Oh Gary.”
She then threw
herself into his arms holding him, hugging him desperately. Gary was completely
caught off guard by her actions. When he could feel her body shaking and hear
the gasping in her voice he knew that she was very scared, so he wrapped his
arms comfortingly around her. She started to cry so Gary held her tighter
feeling her desperation and fear seeping out of her and into him.
He had no idea how
long they stood there with him holding her in his arms, but he did so. He
offered her the strength and comfort she needed and held her as she pulled her
scattered thoughts and feelings together. She needed comfort and he offered it
to her freely without reservation.
Gary felt an
overwhelming sense of protectiveness for the beautiful, strong spirited woman.
She had suffered, he was sure of that, and though he knew little of her past he
knew, sensed, that she needed a little support along the way. He offered that
support to her willingly without expecting anything in return.
Gary felt her
shuddering start to subside and she was gasping as if she were attempting to
stop her tears. He refused to leave her go. He would release her when she told
him that she was ready.
Amanda forced her
erratic heart to slow down and she made herself catch her breath. She needed to
regain her composure. She realized she was being held by Mister Hobson and knew
she shouldn’t be hugging him, but it just felt so good to actually be held
gently. Her husband never offered her hugs or a shoulder to cry on when she
desperately needed it. He would instead storm out of the house and go to the
nearest bar. He believed that such shows of affection, whether in the home or
in public, were unnecessary. He would often say that his parents never offered
him any comfort when he cried so why should he. He was told to suck it in and
deal with it on his own. He very rarely offered any comfort to her. When he did
it was to get her to accept his apology and make her believe that this time he
would back up all of his empty promises to her. She had learned the hard way
that he would never change and nothing she could say or do would ever change
the man. It was a very hard and difficult lesson to learn because she had
wanted so much to be the one to heal all of his pain. Now she saw that he would
never change, and she couldn’t make him change. She had been deluding herself.
No one would change unless they wanted to and her husband refused to even admit
that he had a problem to begin with.
She calmed herself
beginning to feel more in control. She could feel the rawness in her throat as
she tried to resist crying more. She hated that sound of gasping that often
accompanied tears so she focused on Gary. He felt so good, so right, holding
her. She sensed deep down inside herself that here was a man she could trust
with her life, with her secrets. Here was a man that she could actually trust.
She felt afraid as she sensed her heart opening a crack, just a teeny little
crack, to admit trust to begin to make a spark of an appearance inside herself
once again. She knew, sensed, she could trust this man but she was very afraid
to do so. Trusting in him was a huge step for her…one that was very necessary
for her to take to begin healing completely from the brutal, vicious past she
had left behind her when she walked out on her husband for good.
She was rather slow
in pulling from him. She hated abandoning his arms. It felt so good to be held again…to
be held by someone who actually seemed to care for her and about her. She was
glad that someone could still care for her even knowing, or in Gary’s case,
sensing that she was damaged goods. He didn’t seem to care at all about her
traumatic past. He never accused her of being at fault for the abusive marriage
or anything. She up into Gary’s eyes and nearly cried again as she saw pure
sincere concern in his eyes. He wasn’t angry or mad that she had just thrown
herself into his arms, instead he seemed glad and relieved… Gary Hobson was
such a mystery to her. She tried to understand him but with such bad
experiences in her past dealing with men she found that very difficult to do.
To her Gary Hobson was an enigma. She nearly did burst into tears again as Gary
raised his hand and gently wiped away her tears. She flinched on instinct
fearing a strike would be presented to her but she didn’t jerk free of his arms
because she…she trusted that he would not hurt her. He slowed the movement of
his hand once he noticed her sudden anxiousness and she felt a tear roll down
across her cheek as that simple motion of his made her feel special. Gary then
spoke up in a warm gentle tone of voice, “Are you all right, Amanda?”
She looked into
those beautiful mud-puddle green eyes of his and replied, “Yes, I am now.
Gary…thank you for…for being here for me.”
“Sure. Any time.
Would you like to sit down?”
“No, no. I’d rather
walk if that’s okay with you.”
“Walking is good. I
enjoy walking. Let’s go.”
They walked side by
side down the sidewalk. When Gary saw that they were near the Riverfront he
headed that way. He went to the lake path then looked at Amanda and said, “I
love it down here on the waterfront…looking out on the water it’s just
so…relaxing.”
“I love the water.”
“You do? Well now
that’s something I didn’t know about you.”
“There’s a lot of
things you don’t know about me Gary…”
“You’ll tell me when
you’re ready…or maybe you won’t…that choice is yours to make, Amanda.”
“I think it’s only
fair I tell you a little bit more about myself. You’ve been so great to me and
have helped me and my child without pushing too hard to discover why all these
things keep happening to us.”
“I’d like to be your
friend Amanda. I don’t need to know why those things happened to you, although
I won’t lie to you I am very scared for you and Gregory…”
“And you should be…
Gary, I have to tell you a few things.”
“Only if you want to
not because you feel an obligation to tell me.”
“I want to tell you.
I need to tell someone and I’d rather…tell someone I actually…trust…”
Gary smiled at her,
a beautiful brilliant smile when said that. He felt extremely happy. This woman
before him was actually daring to trust in someone…a big step for her and Gary sensed
that in taking that step Amanda would be able to heal completely. Gary spoke
up, “Thank you.”
“For what?”
“Just…thank you.”
“Gary, I haven’t
been myself in a very long time. I…I have a secret… One that I should’ve shared
with you already only…I was too afraid to…Gary, I’m afraid someone is really
after my son and I. I’m afraid he’s found us again.”
“He?”
“Gary, a long time
ago I was married. I thought I loved this man and I thought that he loved me
too only…instead of being the doting, loving husband I expected him to be…he
was violent…short-tempered…always angry and moody… Gary, he would…he, um…my
husband…”
Gary gently spoke up
saying, “Your husband beat you, didn’t he Amanda?”
She could only nod
her head in response. Gary continued, “I’m sorry you had to live like that. I’m
sorry that you have suffered so much for someone so young, so full of life and
spirit…”
Amanda laughed
sarcastically then said, “I don’t have any spirit…”
Gary stopped and
faced her as he said, “That’s where you’re wrong, Amanda. You are one of the
most spirited people I know. You’re beautiful, caring, friendly…from what I
could see you’re a terrific mother… You’re very smart and gentle. You remind me
a lot of Marissa actually.”
“No, no. I’m nothing
like her. She’s so…she’s so independent and strong. She has strength and
courage…me? I just have this fear and anger. I just feel so… I don’t know.”
“Amanda, you are a
very strong and independent woman too. You have strength and courage…”
“No I don’t.”
“Yes you do. It
takes a lot of courage to walk away from a man you feared. It takes a lot of
courage to raise a child. It takes a hell of a lot of courage to continue
living in this city knowing someone’s after you. You are one of the bravest
women I know. You should be proud of that, proud of yourself and all of your
accomplishments. Look at all you have survived and you still can find it in
your heart to face your fears and to dare to trust again. You are a magnificent
woman Amanda Riley. I think that it’s way past time for you to accept that.”
Amanda couldn’t
speak. She felt her throat get tight and was sure she was going to cry again,
but she didn’t. She looked up at this man who was her friend, who was more a stranger
to her than friends should be. He was more a stranger because she has
deliberately been keeping him at a distance, keeping herself from daring to
befriend him. She felt bad that she kept him at such a distance and angry that
her husband caused her to be so leery of another’s intentions. Gary had
willingly accepted that about her. He willingly accepted that she felt a need
to distance herself from him. He questioned her on several occasions but he
always, always stopped when she became upset. She was discovering that Gary
Hobson was truly a magnificent man. She cleared her throat then spoke again,
“My husband…has been following me for years.”
“Are you still
married?”
“No, I divorced him
years ago, but he still follows me. I didn’t want to admit that anyone was
after me because I didn’t want to accept that he had found us again. I thought
for sure I lost him in Michigan but then I saw him today. He’s here Gary. He’s
in Chicago and he wants me.”
“Is your husband the
man who was sitting at the bar earlier?”
“When we went
downstairs? Yes. I…I felt all that fear come back when I saw him. I didn’t know
what to do so I…I ran…as fast as my legs would carry me. He won’t leave until
he gets what he’s here for.”
“Well that will
never happen! I’ll be damned if I’m going to let that monster get his hands on
you again!”
“Gary, there’s
nothing you can do. He’ll use any means to get to me.”
“Such as?”
“If necessary he’ll
go after someone I care for…”
“Gregory. He’s after
your son so he can lure you to him.”
“I believe that’s
his plan.”
“Then we’ll talk to
Armstrong and he’ll put you under police protection…”
“Gary…”
“I know you don’t
trust policemen but Armstrong can help…”
“Gary…”
“Amanda consider
it…”
“I did Gary. I want
to talk to your friend.”
“Then what…?”
“I’m afraid…for
you.”
“What? Why?”
“Gary my ex-husband
will use anyone I care for against me to trap me.”
“Armstrong can
protect you both…”
“No, Gary. Listen to
me. He’ll use anyone I care for and…”
“And what?”
“That means you
too…”
Gary fell silent as
he realized what she was telling him. As he thought of what she just said he
suddenly remembered that sense of being observed he’s been experiencing lately.
Could her ex-husband have been watching him? Gary spoke up, “Oh my God…”
“What?”
“He’s been watching
you. He’s been watching me too.”
“Gary, how can you
be sure?”
“Ever since I met
you I’ve sensed I was being observed…”
“Gary, you may be in
more danger than I thought.”
“What?”
“Jack is the jealous
type. He used to get angry if a man even looked my way. If he’s been watching
us both…”
“He may think that
we’re more than just friends.”
“Gary, he’ll kill
you!”
“No he won’t…”
“Gary, I want you to
leave me alone.”
“What?”
“He won’t harm you
if you stay away…”
“I’m not going
anywhere.”
“But you have to…”
“No. I’m staying
with you.”
“Why? You’ll only
get hurt if you stay with me.”
“Then that’s a risk
I will just have to take.”
“No Gary. You can’t!
You have to leave me be.”
“No Amanda, I refuse
to walk away as if we’ve never met.”
“But you’ll be safer
that way…”
“I’m not leaving you
alone to face him.”
“Why?”
“Because Amanda,
friends don’t bail out on friends at the first sign of trouble. A true friend
would never leave their friend when he or she needs them the most. I’m not
going anywhere. I’m going to stay with you. You can’t do everything alone. You
need someone to be there for you and here I am. I told you before that I will
help you no matter what the risks and I mean what I say. I won’t let you to
face this challenge all on your own. I won’t leave you. I said I wanted to help
you. When I offered my aid I offered knowing that some day I might have to put
myself in danger to protect and help you. Amanda, I’m willing to take the
risks. I’m willing to do anything if it means that you will be able to live
completely free of him. I’m not leaving.”
Amanda felt fresh
tears spring to her eyes. Tears of joy and fear intermingled. She was so happy
that he was willing to risk so much to help her but she also greatly feared for
his safety. She found herself praying to God above, begging him to watch over
Gary and to keep him safe. She prayed that God would keep Gary, her and her
child safe and she truly believed that God would fulfill that promise. Feeling
such certainty that God would protect all of them she felt a lot better. She
looked at Gary saying, “Thank you so much. You have been such a great and
patient friend to me.”
“You’re welcome. I
promise I’ll help you get through this.”
“Thank you.”
“Now what about
Armstrong? Do you still want to talk to him?”
She hesitated then
spoke up, “Yes…if you really think he can help.”
Gary smiled nodding
his head then said, “Are you ready to go?”
“As ready as I’ll
ever be.”
“All right.”
* * * *
As Amanda saw the
sign for the Chicago Police Department up ahead her steps slowed. Gary looked
at her in concern questioning, “Having second thoughts?”
“No, no. Just bad
memories concerning police departments.”
Before Gary thought
of what he was saying he spoke up, “I know what you mean.”
Amanda eyed Gary up.
She swore that she saw him shudder and get more anxious as they approached the
police department, but why? She suddenly remembered the first time her and Gary
were here together. Gary’s friend had started saying something about Gary. She
remembered him saying that Gary hadn’t been there since…but Gary had quickly
cut him off as if what his friend was going to say greatly upset him. She found
her curiosity was now peaked. She could tell that Gary was almost as
uncomfortable as she was visiting the police department. She didn’t ask those
burning questions hovering at the tip of her tongue…yet. Instead, she continued
on towards the station with Gary. They entered the police station with Gary in
the lead. He stopped to let her catch up then said, “Armstrong’s office is that
way. I’ll go speak to him first if you’d like.”
“Um, yes I would.”
As they approached
Armstrong’s office Gary noticed Amanda slow down and sensed her sudden
apprehension. He looked at her then questioned, “Are you going to be all right
out here?”
She only nodded.
Gary continued, “If you would feel more comfortable with me then…”
“I’ll wait here. I…I
don’t know him. He seems kind of…intimidating.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes.”
“All right. If you
feel uncomfortable at all just come in. I’m going to explain the situation to
him. I’ll come get you.”
“Thanks Gary.”
“If it’s any help
you can see me right through this window.”
She nodded then Gary
entered, knocking first. Armstrong sat at his desk doing paperwork. He didn’t
even bother to look up to see who his visitor was as he asked, “Yeah?”
“Detective
Armstrong, can I…speak with you?”
Armstrong looked up as
he recognized the voice of his visitor. He said, “Gary, sure come on in. So
have you had any more run ins with our mystery woman?”
“Um…that’s why I’m
here.”
Armstrong stopped
what he was doing completely and gave Gary his undivided attention. He spoke
up, “I’m listening.”
“Well she…she’s
here.”
“What?”
“Right outside.
She’s kind of scared to come in…”
“Why?”
“Armstrong she’s
running.”
“How do you know?”
“She told me. She
came here to speak with you. She wants protection if you can provide it.”
“Well Hobson, there
are certain procedures…”
“Look, I know there
are procedures, ways of doing things but… She needs help. She is willing to ask
for it. Look, at least hear her story then afterwards you can decide what you
want to do.”
“You know this is very
unusual Hobson, but I like you and I kind of owe you. I’ll listen to her
story.”
“Thank you. Oh
Armstrong…she’s a little bit shaken up, and she doesn’t trust police
officers…ANY police officers. The only reason that she agreed to speak with you
is because you’re a friend. Go easy on her.”
* * * *
Meanwhile…
Winslow spotted
Hobson as soon as the man entered the station. He wondered who the very attractive
blond was accompanying him. Winslow only shook his head when he watched Hobson
make a beeline for Armstrong’s office. He often felt weird about the man.
Hobson always got mixed up in trouble. Winslow often wondered if Hobson
suffered from Muchousin by proxy…setting up accidents only so he could come in,
save the day and be declared the hero. He wasn’t sure if Hobson was trouble or
not. He had even confronted Armstrong several times with his suspicions. Paul
would only shake his head and rattle off some incident in which there was no
possible way Hobson could’ve set something up. Gary Hobson was certainly a
strange individual and Winslow really didn’t know what to think of the man.
Winslow smirked as
he saw Toni Brigatti marching his way. She had been a Federal Marshall and then
had transferred to Chicago PD. She was a tough-as-nails cop who always got her
man, or woman, in the end. She had a tendency to be somewhat rude at times and
downright harsh when talking with some of the other officers. Some of the guys
called her the ice queen behind her back. She took her job very seriously and
always did spectacular with solving her cases. She might be a little abrupt at
times but she knew what the hell she was doing. Winslow hated to admit it but
he admired her. She was one very good cop…her only problem was her apparent
taste in men. Brigatti had a thing for Gary Hobson, though she’d never admit it
to anyone. She was attracted to him. Of all the men she could take an interest
in she had to pick a very unusual, very bizarre man. Winslow would never
understand what that woman could possibly see in Gary Hobson. Hobson was the
only one who could successfully crack that hard exterior shell Brigatti always
presented to the world. He was the only one that could make Brigatti lose her
focus and her balance. He was one of the few men that had managed to get beyond
the mask Brigatti seemed to project to everyone. Winslow couldn’t resist
teasing her as she stopped by him. He spoke up, “Hey Brigatti, your boyfriend’s
here.”
“Shut up, Winslow.”
“No seriously. He’s
talking to Armstrong right now.”
“Winslow for your
information I don’t have a boyfriend and I intend to keep it that way for a
very long time. Now if you’ll excuse me I have work to do.”
“You’re not even the
slightest bit interested in why Hobson showed up here with a beautiful blond?”
He was smirking at
her patiently waiting for her reaction. She jerked her head up at the mention
of Hobson her cheeks flushed briefly then a spark of anger flared in the depths
of her eyes. She spoke evenly trying to keep any possible emotions from
slipping out in her voice. She asked, “Hobson’s here? Why?”
“Don’t know, but him
and Armstrong seem to be having a very serious discussion.”
Brigatti tried to
ignore the sense of butterflies in her stomach, the way her heart pounded and
the way she felt tingly all over just at the simple mention of Hobson’s name.
She swore she wouldn’t look for Hobson, but cursed as her self-control slipped.
She saw him in Armstrong’s office and deliberately ignored the sudden
excitement and anxiousness she felt at again seeing him. She realized she was
staring so she jerked her eyes away focusing on the blond Winslow had
mentioned. The blond was definitely attractive. What was she doing with Gary?
Gary was her…Brigatti immediately slammed the door on those thoughts and
ignored the stab of jealousy she suddenly felt regarding the woman. She turned
from the scene and focused all of her energy on the job at hand. She quickly
put space between her and Winslow entering her office. The last thing she
needed was to see the man’s triumph over discovering that she still indeed had
feelings for Gary Hobson that were more than professional.
Brigatti tried not
to think of her, but her mind refused to leave her even a moment’s solace. All
she could seem to focus on was Gary Hobson and those memories of how his kiss
felt so good at that jewelry store. Gary’s kiss had been so intense that day
that she had failed to catch a jewel thief making a quick switch trading a fake
jewel for the Larmontofe Diamond. She had been angry about that particular kiss
and not because she had been tricked, no, she was angry that day because Hobson
was one hell of a kisser. She nearly drowned in his kiss. She never, ever, got
that caught up in a simple kiss in her entire life. She also hated to admit
just how much she had enjoyed her cover: being married to Mister Thurston,
alias Gary Hobson. She had enjoyed that false marriage to the man just a little
too much. Just when she had managed to get angry with the man he turned around
and retrieved the damned diamond saving her career in the process. She could
never stay angry with that man for more than a few minutes and knowing that
really annoyed her. She didn’t let men get too close, and she never ever left a
man get under her skin, but Gary Hobson had managed successfully to weasel his
way into her heart…though she’d never willingly admit that she was extremely
attracted to him.
She started pacing
as thoughts of Gary Hobson kept entering her mind. Damn the man for getting to
her! It was so frustrating! Why did Gary leave her feeling so unbalanced? Why
did he distract her so much? Forget him Toni you have much more important
things to attend to. Focus Toni focus! Of course all of her silent urgings to
forget him and focus fell on deaf ears because as long as that man was in the
same vicinity as she was and she could easily see him from her vantage point
her mind would not give her any peace. He disturbed her even when he was way
across a busy police station. Damn you Hobson! What is it about you that…? She
got a sudden urge to throw open a window. Her mind was no longer thinking pure
thoughts now she was wondering just how good a lover the man was… He had a
great body and those eyes…
Focus, Toni, focus!
But she couldn’t as
her fantasies seemed to be attempting to take charge of her mind. I bet he
looks beautiful naked…Toni stop! Stop right there! She spoke out without
realizing it saying in a firm tone of voice, “Damn you Hobson get the hell out
of my head!”
Lucky for her none
of her co-workers were nearby to hear that statement of hers. She nearly
screamed as she remembered how tight his jeans fit on that sexy torso of his…damn
it! Why was he monopolizing her mind like this? He was definitely not her type,
not her type at all! So why couldn’t she seem to think of anything else but
him? She clenched her hands into fists as she pictured how he’d look in the
heat of passion…
“Oh God Gary…”
She swallowed hard
and jerked away from that man. She walked purposely to her window inhaling
deeply the fresh air. She had to stop thinking of him, especially in that way.
He was just a man, an ordinary man. They had dated only briefly when her job
got in the way making it nearly impossible to continue. Gary had said he
understood perfectly. They agreed to just be friends. Friends didn’t have
intense sexual fantasies about one another. Gary was her friend not her lover,
so why did she continue to think of just what he might be like in the bedroom
behind closed doors?
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