At the End of the Road by dvshipper

At the End of the Road

By: dvshipper

CATEGORY: Drama

WARNINGS: Character death

AUTHOR’S NOTES: Written for Dead Letter Variations. The idea is that Daniel has died and has one last chance to write a letter to someone, that someone being Vala. By the way, this wasn’t betad.

AUTHOR’S WEBSITE:

http://dvshipper.livejournal.com/

Vala,

I know what you’re thinking and no, I haven’t ascended. Unfortunately, this was my last chance at life and now it’s up. You said once that you hate long goodbyes but this letter is my goodbye. When have you ever known me to make things short? This is my chance to tell you what I didn’t have the courage to say when I had the chance.

When you so unceremoniously traipsed into my life, everything changed. It was the first time in a long time that I trusted myself to feel something for someone. The only thing was, I didn’t know I had feelings for you until it was too late. You had put up your walls and I mine. You put adventure and fun into my life again. Even though I didn’t, Sam and Teal’c noticed it.

We’ve been through so much together; I can’t even begin to describe it all. You always had my back, even when I thought I didn’t want you there. If ever there was someone I loved more than you, I don’t know of them. When fate, and the Ori, tore us apart my heart was ripped in two. One half for me to barely survive on and the other half you took in your grasp. And then finally, finally, I saw your brilliant face again and I was made whole.

I was so afraid of what might happen, I never told you what was on my mind. I’m sorry for that. I’m sorry that I never told you I loved you in anything more than subtle looks and masked touches. Isn’t it odd how we all wear our masks, covering who we really are and then only death reveals us?

What I regret the most is that we never got the chance at a life together. I know we spent the majority of our time together but it was never what I had always wanted. It was unfair of me to deny you of that life. I know that now but then I was just a stubborn fool who couldn’t see past his own fear.

What I don’t regret is every day I got to look upon your face. I got to share so much with you. The light that shines through your eyes, mirroring your spirit. That glowing smile that makes my heart sing. You never ceased to amaze me with your knowledge and intelligence…and your ability to turn every comment I make into an innuendo. That’s what I’ve always loved about you Vala: you’re completely fearless.

You should know, though I’m not ascended, thing aren’t so different. Sure I don’t have all the knowledge of the Ancients but I’m still around. I’m always here, right beside you. That warmth on your arm, the breeze on your neck, the shadow that you almost see, it’s me Vala. Your Daniel. Here at the end of the road, I’m not scared. Maybe that’s because I’ve died before. I have a feeling though, that it’s because you taught me to not fear the unknown; just rush at it and challenge it. Even though I can’t be there to protect you from everything that comes through the gate, I promise I will always and forever be by your side. Don’t you ever forget that.

Yours, only yours,

Daniel

P.S.

Can you make sure Jack gets the letter in my top desk drawer? Thanks.

** The End **

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