Good Man
By: Random
CATEGORY: Drama, Friendship, Missing Scene
WARNINGS: Language
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"To Paul Emerson,"
"He was a good man."
Eyes bright with feelings she'd stuffed deep, Sam glanced at him. "We always do."
Looking up at her,
"Huh?" The word startled out with a puff of
air as
Looking into those very clear, very blue eyes, he was damn sure he didn't want to hear an answer from a man with that much aggressive edge flashing warning lights.
Teal'c had lifted an eyebrow and held his head high, like a
man who could smell stinky trouble coming and would head it off at the
pass. Eyes bright, Vala was wrapping the end of one pigtail around a
finger, and she'd sat up a little since she liked trouble. Sam wasn't
meeting
"Little harsh,"
He'd figured
That didn't seem to be the case here.
Teal'c, detached as a Buddha, seemed to see it the same as Jackson--or he wanted to. He nodded and said, "I concur with Daniel Jackson. As we heard from the recording, Colonel Emerson was honorable but most unwise in his choice of tactics."
"So this is about us giving up the good fight
now?"
Mouth twisting,
"Lying, cheating, thief?" Vala said, her tone and eyes bright as the lights overhead. She offered a wide smile, then her voice dipped low and knowing. "Sounds like you're living in my part of the universe now."
Lounging in her chair, the only one at the table still
relaxed, she gave
Glancing away from Vala,
"No, a good enough result."
"Oh, that's such bull, Daniel."
All eyes turned to Sam, but she stared at
"Emerson had no business endangering you the way he
did. He had a gun on him. He should have known it would turn to you
next, and what did he do? He goes all military stupid."
Sam echoed it back when she asked, "And you wouldn't have put yourself in the way?"
Stare fixed on a drip of coffee that had made it to the
table and which he was now dragging around with a fingertip until it
disappeared,
"I liked Emerson." The others tuned and glanced at Vala. Eyes going wider, she looked back at them, lifted her shoulders in a quick shrug. "Well, I did."
"Yeah--good man," Jackson said again, left it so neutral you could put any spin on it, but Cam was going for pretty much good and stupid.
And just when had their civilian become such a hardass?
Oh, sure, he'd always delivered when they needed him.
Seems like Sam did.
With a shake of her head, she got up, walked out. Cam waited for someone to follow her, but no one did, so he got up and went after her, and maybe that's what made him team leader. He got sweep-up detail.
He didn't have to sweep far, since he found Sam in the hallway right outside the room, her shoulders braced against the wall, head tilted back, hair blonde-pale in the artificial lights, and her stare on the pale ceiling.
As he stopped next to her, she glanced at him, managed a
tight smile that left her big blues almost as cool as
"He who?
Her smile warmed with some sympathy--about time he got some from someone. "Sorry. I also forget sometimes that you've only had the official versions of our lives."
Putting his shoulder on the wall next to her, he hooked his thumbs into the edges of his pockets. He knew the start of a good story when he heard one, so he put on an interested face and waited. Sure enough, she let out a sigh, twisted so she was leaning on the wall, didn't quite need it holding her up anymore. Then she pulled in a breath, let it out slow, and he could see the memory drifting into her eyes even as she kept her arms folded.
"The second time we went back to Chulak, we were there to help Teal'c and his family."
He nodded, started rummaging in memory for that mission file--his year of light reading and heavy lifting, as in getting his ass out of a hospital bed so he could learn to walk again. And he thanked his mama's side of the family for good genes and a mind that held more junk than any attic.
"Yeah--Rya'c got his own junior that outing, didn't
he?" Then the other penny fell. "And
"It's what didn't make the report. Not fifteen minutes later, Daniel pulled out a snack. A snack! And he asked me if I thought the Goa'uld larva we had taken needed to be fed--like it was a pet goldfish."
Okay, that was--well, little chilly there. You'd
expect that thick a skin from someone who'd been dealing death twenty-years,
and
"Sam, that's only the one--"
"Then there was the time he waved bye-bye to a few
thousand
Hearing her tone sharpen,
Sam nodded. It did sound like that, and for a long time she had assumed it was only the Goa'uld who brought out the worst in Daniel, or at least they brought out this callous part of him. But she'd also seen him after Euronda. He'd fought everyone about their interference in a war where they hadn't known who was right and what was wrong. Then, after a Eurondan had died by slamming into the closed Iris, she'd told Daniel about O'Neill's orders to close it behind them. And Daniel had shrugged off her words.
"Jack warned
him--Alar made his choice. Besides, do you really want a man who
supported genocide within the NID's reach?"
She'd understood his point. But that implacable tone in Daniel's voice, his seeming approval of O'Neill's action, had stunned her almost as much as what the colonel had done. She didn't see the need to bring up that story now, but there were a few others she also didn't want to remember. Unas armed by Daniel because he thought they deserved freedom, and because one of those Unas had become Daniel's friend. Daniel, arrogant and fighting dirty for a woman who could destroy worlds--putting another world at risk--because he had decided what was right. And Daniel's attitute towards anyone from the Trust who'd eneded up dead had always been more than casual.
"It's not just Goa'uld. He's...
"You worry about it?" he asked.
She shook her head, and the hard lines around her eyes and mouth eased off a notch. "No. Well, yes, I do. It seems like I see this side of him more than I used to, and--" She broke off, seemed to run out of steam, or maybe had as much trouble as he did with the idea of Daniel Jackson not being such a peaceful explorer, after all.
"One of these days he may not pack it away again--that it?" he asked.
"No. No, I know Daniel would rather not have to shoot people. That is his first choice. And his second, and his last. And I think it's always going to be the one he looks for until he runs out of options."
"But there's also more than a few reasons he and Jack
O'Neill hit it off?"
Sam's smile flickered, went to sixty watts instead of the usual two hundred. "Yes, but, honestly, if I had to pick, it might be Daniel's bad side that I'd put down as the one to avoid. General O'Neill's temper tends to be explosive and then its gone. Once you've made Daniel's list--"
"Not only will he give you a shove off any slippery slope you're on, he'll tell you to have a good trip on the way down--and he can wait a very long time for his chance to give you that shove?"
She shook her head. "Something like that. The trouble is, I'm not sure what Daniel thinks about that part of himself. He's too self-aware not to know that it exists, but I don't know how he's able to reconcile it with his basic beliefs."
"So, what, that crack about good men? That for
real?"
Teal'c was the muscle of the outfit. Sam the
brains.
That was what it was supposed to be. At least in his mind. That was the SG-1 who went in and did it right. They were the good guys doing right.
But here was
But Sam gave him some reassurance. She shook her head
as if she wasn't buying all
"I think a lot of things Daniel says just come out. Sometimes, it's as if he has to hear an idea before he can make up his mind about it. Or he says things because he does hold that beliefs should be challenged, even his own. But a few things...well, he more than means them."
He glanced at Sam, frowned hard. "So you think he's mostly blowing off steam right now?"
"Mostly. Yes. But I also think there's a very small circle of people that Daniel allows himself to care for deeply. The rest of the world exists as something of an abstract construct to him--its value isn't so much personal to him as it is a moral standard. And Daniel can be flexible in how he applies that. He's not a rigid thinker."
"Come on,
"So the guy they spaced...?" Frowning,
Leaning back in his chair, Teal'c was watching Daniel and Vala. Those two had gotten into a discussion--Cam wasn't going to label it an argument even if it looked like it was about to start walking and talking like one. They had their heads close, had voices low and intense. But Teal'c was smiling wide, indulgent as an uncle who didn't have to live with the brats but who knew how to make them behave if he had to.
Her smile slipped to the indulgent side, too. "My bet--Daniel made some stupid joke. A Jack O'Neill special. But that man's death--no, that's not a loss. Not for Daniel. He has the deepest sympathy for innocents dragged along by fate into a choiceless hell. Less for people who make bad choices--and he includes himself and us in that list. Those are his regrets. And he doesn't show any for people who make bad choices with the worst intentions."
"Y'know--this conversation is not making me feel a whole lot better. I kind of...well, I had this idea...."
Eyebrows lifting, she stared at him, and
He was also going to have to keep a better eye on threats
toward anyone
"Ah, hell--let's go back and finish our juice. Think we could round up some food maybe?"
For a minute, he wasn't sure if she'd take the offer, but this time the smile made it to a sharp glint in her eyes. Nudging him in the side with her elbow, she asked, "Only if there's something other than orange juice."
"Oh, there's always military coffee--hell, we should
give some to those
She didn't laugh, but the smile widened, and she at least came back with him to the others--nice he could get one of his team to follow him some of the time.
* * * *
From his peripheral vision, Daniel watched Sam and Mitchell walk back into the room. No need to make a show about it, but Sam was upset, and if Mitchell had made it worse...
But, no, Sam was smiling again, even if her eyes were shadowed. Sometimes Sam needed that military-to-military understanding. And he wished Jack was here to kick her butt and remind her that she had done good. Emerson had been an idiot. God, even Maybourne had never been so brainless. But Emerson had reminded Daniel just why it was that military personnel were not really well-suited to this job. They tended to think other people would follow rules, too.
Thank god, Jack had been special ops trained; the man had
taught everyone at the SGC that sometimes it was better to smile, act stupid,
and wait for a chance. Even Vala knew that. Emerson should have,
too. Damn the man. Damn this ridiculous
But Sam was partly right; he'd wanted her safe and he hadn't been bothered by Vala's solution if it got him what he wanted. Vala, however, had also just admitted that the other guy whose body they hadn't found had probably been the one who'd pulled the trigger on Emerson. He'd guessed they would never find that body, and he wondered if the man might be part of the Odyssey's hull now; Vala really had liked Emerson. But it wouldn't be good for Vala to start thinking she could make troubles disappear with a button and an Asgard beam.
She had a point, however, about some troubles being good ones to simply put out of sight like so much trash.
But, right now, what he wanted was something to lighten the shadows in Sam's eyes. Damnit, Emerson--you were supposed to stay alive. Jack's first rule--you stay alive. And, okay, that was a rule he'd more than bent himself, but Emerson had been military, so he should have been better at something like that.
Only he hadn't been.
But Mitchell seemed to be. He was making bad jokes now, too. Teasing Sam out of her mood, and Daniel watched, waited to see how it went. Under the table, Vala kicked his shin. When he glanced at her, she widened her eyes, stared hard at him, then nudged her head toward Sam.
Stiffened, he frowned back at Vala.
He knew what she'd been angling for in trade for her most recent confession--she'd told him. But he wasn't sure this was the time or place for that. But she started drumming her fingers on the table and when he looked at her again, she cocked her chin and lifted her eyebrows with expectation and he could guess she wasn't letting this go. And maybe she was right.
Her boot swung again, but he was ready and moved his leg so she only brushed by him. Then her fingers slid onto his thigh and into his lap. That got him to his feet. He not only did not trust Vala's hands, he didn't trust her ideas of motivational stimulus.
But the challenge in her expression softened as she glanced at Sam, then she looked back, all imploring stormy gray eyes. It wasn't just Emerson whom Vala liked. So he left her to cover his exit, headed into the kitchens.
It took fifteen minutes, abject begging, and a shameless promise to speak to General O'Neill about approvals on the next set of requisitions for the Odyssey's re-supply. He hadn't asked how Vala knew what he'd find, some gifts should just be accepted. She had taken a odd liking to kitchens; given her appetite, any place with food seemed to her to be something worth cultivation, enough so that he wondered how at times long it had been between feasts and famines for her.
Walking back with two plates and forks and slices of chocolate cake the size of which would impress even Teal'c, he had to focus on not toppling the cake, so he couldn't judge reactions. Damnit, Vala better be right about doing this now.
One slice of cake went to Sam, the other to Teal'c. Then he straightened and finally had a chance to take in their expressions. Teal'c already had his fork in hand and pleased appreciation warming dark eyes. Sam sat staring at the cake, wary of it, as if it might explode, then she glanced at him, her mouth quirking.
"I thought pie was the answer to everything?"
"Yeah, well, they didn't have pie. Jack'll have to fix that."
Eyeing Sam's cake, Mitchell leaned over her shoulder, then glanced up. "Two slices? The rest of us don't rate?"
Daniel glanced at Mitchell, folded his arms and stayed on his feet, out of Vala's reach. "Compensation for capture."
"Well, hell, I was in enemy hands,"
"No, you were pretending to be enemy hands."
Picking up her fork, Sam gestured between Vala and Daniel. "What about you guys? I seem to remember both of you being behind a locked door earlier."
Vala smiled and sat up straighter. "I wouldn't say no to sharing. Isn't that one of your sayings--sharing always makes it better?"
"I think that's something about shared work and
lightened load,"
"Don't sulk--it's not pretty on a man. Well, maybe on Daniel."
"I don't--"
"Yes, you do. But if Sam shares her cake with me, I'll cut you in on my part of it." Vala started to lean across the table, but Teal'c slid his cake toward her and offered his fork.
"I would be most honored if you would partake of my portion."
With a smile, Vala scooted her chair closer to him, made the plastic-tipped legs scrape across the metal floor.
"Damn, am I the only one left out?" Eyes narrowing, Mitchell glanced up, and Daniel wasn't sure how to judge the man's expression. Then Mitchell dove in, swiped a large chunk of frosting from Sam's cake and settled back with a smirk.
Sam held up her fork, tines pointed at Mitchell. "Hey, my cake."
"Yeah, and didn't
Head dropping down,
He got another of those looks from
One being he was glad Sam had come back with him with a
smile. If she hadn't, going by
Next thing was
But the third thing was that, when he clued in,
And now he knew why O'Neill had said what he'd said after
he'd heard
"You're going to
have to watch out for Daniel."
Part of Earth's best defense, and the man who'd dragged
everyone into some of the worst disasters. A wild card in any deck.
And
On the other hand, these two brought out the juvie delinquent in each other, and it seemed like every time the two of them went off on their own, stuff more than happened. It wasn't just Jackson who'd opened this galaxy up for the Ori, after all.
But, watching Vala eat Teal'c's cake now, seeing
He glanced up, found
And that was one of the reasons
His people seemed to know that, too.
"You're a good man, Jackson."
The comment startled
"Oh, yeah. You wouldn't be bitching about not having more bad ones otherwise. Way I see it, guys who can't tell the difference, they're the ones you really have to watch out for."
And, yeah, that had been tucked into General O'Neill's
words, too. Watch out for Daniel--make sure the guy could keep seeing a
difference. In himself. And the world around him.
"How much difference is there really?"
"Yeah, but you said it before. Sometimes it's the reasons. 'Course, sometimes it's just not being the first one who pulls the trigger."
This time when
And he knew he was dealing
But
** The End **
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