Once You Had Gold by Maeve Bran

Once You Had Gold

By: Maeve Bran

CATEGORY: Angst

SEASON/SPOILERS: Season 10 up to “Beachhead”

WARNINGS: None

AUTHOR’S NOTES: This was written for jedibuttercup in the Multi-Fandom Lyric Wheel.

AUTHOR’S WEBSITE:

http://www.fanfiction.net/~maevebran

Once you had gold,
Once you had silver,
Then came the rains
Out of the blue.
Ever and always.
Always and ever.
Time gave both darkness and
dreams to you.

Now you can see
Spring becomes autumn,
Leaves become gold
Falling from view.
Ever and always.
Always and ever.
No-one can promise a dream come true,
Time gave both darkness and
dreams to you.

What is the dark;
Shadows around you,
Why not take heart
In the new day?
Ever and always.
Always and ever.
No-one can promise a dream for you,
Time gave both darkness and
dreams to you.

Daniel Jackson sat in his office at Stargate Command.
He held the picture of Sha're in his hands. It had
been almost six years since her death and still her
picture sent needles of grief through his heart. They
had had such a short time together yet that time
remained golden in his memory. That was the last time
he had been as happy as he had been the last several
months.

Vala had turned his world upside down. She had come in
claiming to have an Ancient treasure map and then
linked them together. Somewhere between the treasure
and today's destruction of the Ori beachhead, Daniel
had come to appreciate the thief's finer qualities. He
didn't just mean her physical attributes, although he
was red blooded enough to admit those were
spectacular. She had still driven him absolutely
crazy. But somehow in the craziness, he had managed to
put some of the loneliness of the last years behind
him.

Daniel was in a fully contemplative mood now. That
always happened when he stared at Sha're's picture for
more than just a glance. He started reviewing his
romantic life.( Anything to keep from imagining
nightmare scenarios in his head about what had
happened to Vala.) He remembered his college
relationship with Sarah Gardner. He had been such a
fool then. He hadn't really know what he was doing.
She was his first girlfriend and he had been in the
middle of his second doctorate. Nothing excused his
treatment of her though. She had come on to him in the
library and he had gone along with it.

When you really thought about it, like Daniel was
doing now, both of his romantic relationships he had
just stumbled onto. Not that he hadn't had feelings
for both Sarah and Sha're. He had. His feelings for
Sarah paled in comparison to hers for him but they had
been there. No matter what Sarah may have thought, he
really did have feelings for her. OK, so maybe not as
much as he should have and he knew he should have
shown them more. Growing up in foster homes, Daniel
had learned early to hide what he was feeling or he'd
be pounded into the dust. He had tried to be the
boyfriend Sarah needed but his studies had made it
easy to hide his feelings. It was easy to see in
hindsight what he should have done.

His love for Sha're was legendary. It had taken Sha're
most of the year on Abydos to get Daniel to show how
he felt. It hadn't been that hard for her to break
through his walls. She had done so persistently and
deliberately. He had felt exposed and vulnerable at
the time but now he blessed her memory.
So where did that leave him and Vala. Daniel didn't
know but he knew he just had to have a chance to find
out. Vala couldn't have died. He knew he had to get
her back. He had to see if his new dreams could
possibly come true.

** The End **

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