Personal Sacrifice
Part 4
By:
Stacy L.
LEARNING
SEXUAL SERVITUDE
ALANDRIA
-- ATHENA'S PLANET
The
Visit
The
planet was called Alandria and it was a beautiful
place. They were to meet with the system lord Athena today. Daniel was curious
about her. The Goa'uld lord in charge of this planet
took on the persona of the Greek goddess Athena...the great huntress. He could
see the planet from the main hold of the ship. It was colored similar to Earth
but instead of seeing swirls of blue and white from this distance it was an
interesting mix of purple and pink...very odd colors for the surface of a
planet. He wondered what the surface looked like and what the inhabitants of
the planet looked like.
He
accompanied Osiris to the transport rings watching as
they lowered around them to whisk them to the surface of Alandria.
When the rings lifted up over them returning to the ceiling Daniel glanced
around and found himself standing in a very lavish sitting area. This was
probably the meeting room. Without thought and without asking for permission
Daniel approached the windows that he knew overlooked the city below. He wasn't
sure of what to expect. The appearance of the city below was definitely not
what he had been visualizing.
Below
them people walked the streets and tall, elegant buildings lined the streets. In several areas throughout the city stood huge, dramatic statues
of hunters and animals. Statues of bears, wolves and birds...there were
several statues of archers taking aim at their prey or preening their
bows...the architecture was even extravagant. Obviously Athena loved elegance
and beauty.
Osiris remained silent as his servant left his side without seeking
permission first. He found himself watching the man again raking his eyes
appreciatively over the young, firm body of his favored. He could feel the heat
and desire stirring within and smirked as his nipples hardened beneath the
fabric of the elegant gown he now wore. He would make that man his. He would
soon demand he serve in the bedroom and if his servant denied his lord...
"Daniel?"
As
the man turned to face him, Osiris swallowed hard
feeling that desire and hunger within only surmounting. He had a sudden urge to
grab his servant, throw him on the meeting table and make love to him. He so
wanted to hear that man screaming and pleading for more. He so wanted to feel
the man as he eagerly responded to his lord. To have that magnificent creature
bucking and writhing beneath him as he staked his final claim on him and marked
the man as truly his...oh how he wanted that so.
Osiris watched Daniel through hooded eyes not wanting to reveal his hunger to
his favored just yet. Sarah said to go slowly and not to frighten the man so
that's what he intended to do. He swallowed hard before softly prompting,
"What have you failed to do properly?" watching the man as he seemed
to contemplate that question. As the answer came to him he saw anger and
stubbornness flare up in the man's eyes. He heard Sarah telling him to remain
silent and wait. Daniel cast another quick glance out the window before slowly
approaching him, lowering to his knees gracefully and softly requesting,
"My Lord may your servant be granted permission to look upon the planet of
Alandria?"
Osiris smiled. Ah yes, Daniel Jackson was learning his place. Though the
learning was progressing much slower than he liked he allotted the man the
extra time to learn how to carry himself and how to perform as his personal
attendant. The trainings were taking much longer than he had foreseen and many
issues had to be repetitively covered because the man was so stubborn, but he
was learning and he was becoming more a proper attendant each and every day. He
knew that Daniel was patiently awaiting his answer and that it angered the
young man to have to ask for rights, but this he refused to be lax on for
Daniel needed to learn his place and his status. He answered, "Yes you
may, my precious one."
"Thank
you, My Lord."
Osiris' smile broadened as Daniel remained on his knees still awaiting
permission to rise and be excused. Yes his servant was learning his station
very well. Osiris then added, "You may now
rise."
"Thank
you, My Lord."
He
watched as Daniel rose and approached the window again staring out at the
streets in curiosity. They waited only a few more moments before Athena entered
and approached welcoming, "Ah, Lord Osiris, I
would like to take this opportunity to welcome you to Alandria.
Please have a seat so that we may discuss our agreement."
"Thank
you. Daniel, come attend to your lord."
Daniel
turned from the window softly responding, "Yes My Lord."
He
then approached Osiris keeping his head bowed in a
proper show of submission to his master. Athena smiled as she raked her eyes
appreciatively over Osiris' new favored. She said,
"Ah, I see that you have acquired a favored one. He is most beautiful,
Lord Osiris."
"Yes
he is. Athena may I introduce you to my favored Daniel. Daniel this is the
goddess Athena."
Daniel
bowed gracefully before her keeping his eyes trained on the floor as he softly
replied, "My Lady it is an honor to make your acquaintance."
"Do
you treat your lord well?"
"Yes
My Lady."
"That
is good to hear. Lord Osiris has been most unhappy
since the disappearance of his queen. He is in need of one who is able to make
him smile again. Come sit beside your lord. Do not be shy for as his favored
you have my respect so come sit..."
"My Lord?"
"Come
Daniel, sit beside your lord."
"Thank
you, My Lord."
Daniel
sat down and Osiris leaned over softly whispering,
"She has permitted you to cast your eyes above the floor my precious one.
Remember you are to carry yourself as a god. Behave as you have been trained,
my precious slave."
"Yes
My Lord."
Athena
smiled as she watched the young man cast his eyes upward nervously. She nodded
as he made direct eye contact with her and found that he had beautiful eyes to
match with a beautiful face. She could see why Osiris
selected him for he was most striking. She turned from him to focus on Osiris questioning, "Now then what is the true reason
for your visit to Alandria, Lord Osiris?"
Daniel
found himself glancing nervously at Osiris hearing
the tension in Athena's words. She had sounded pleasant but now as she focused
her gaze on Osiris she seemed far from happy to have
him here. Osiris merely smiled as he assessed her
before answering, "Our purpose is to forge a treaty with you and your
followers."
"Why
would you want to forge an alliance with one who has been your enemy for far
too long?"
Enemy? Daniel now wondered about the history between these two. He glanced
from Osiris to Athena and back again aware that the
air was now sparking with an underlying tension. Osiris
had told him that he and Athena were on opposite spectrums when it came to
certain issues but he had said nothing about past discord running amongst them.
He could now see Osiris was growing angry and decided
to interrupt, "My Lord Osiris wishes to forge a
treaty of peace. He has traveled very far for this meeting and would like to
offer an alliance..."
Athena
glanced up at Daniel then at Osiris with a look of
curiosity and question in her eyes. She liked this young man who had somehow
won Osiris' favor. He was bold as well as stunning.
She glanced at Osiris knowing that if it had been
several years ago and his most favored had spoken without seeking his lord's
permission first that Osiris would not have hesitated
to punish him before her. Now as she watched him the only reaction he offered
was to reach a hand over to his favored and touch his arm. She watched with
growing interest as the young man jerked his gaze upright tensing as his lord
touched him. When Osiris leaned over to whisper in
his ear she noticed that he softly spoke. She caught snippets of his words. Enough to ascertain that he was explaining why he spoke without permission.
She waited to see if Osiris would still punish his
servant for showing disrespect before another system lord. When his words
floated to her from across the table she could only stare in surprise. He was
thanking his servant for speaking? What? As she continued to observe the two
even closer she noticed something that shocked her even more: Osiris was doting on his favored. She could see an emotion
she never expected to see in this particular enemy...love. He was in love with
his favored. Without consideration she interrupted, "You love him."
They
both jerked their heads up staring at her intently. She realized then that she
should not have made her knowledge known for Osiris
would now see her as a possible enemy who could control him for she had discovered
what none have yet realized: Osiris loved his servant
and therefore his servant could bring about Osiris'
destruction for one had only to hurt the one he obviously loved to succeed. She
had noticed before with
She
silenced her thoughts before shaking her head and continuing, "Yes I will
listen to your proposal. Please tell me of this alliance you wish to
forge."
Daniel
continued observing her feeling very confused and anxious due to her comment...love,
she had said that Osiris loved him. He...why? How? He
sensed before that Osiris wanted him, desired him but
love was never in the picture. God he hoped she were very wrong because if Osiris...loved him he'd never be free of the Goa'uld lord. He tried to push those troubling thoughts to
the back of his mind not wanting to even begin to consider just what those
words would mean for him, especially if they were true. As Athena spoke he felt
relieved because she succeeded in drawing his attention away from such
considerations. He noticed that she seemed more willing to listen to Osiris now and as he focused on Osiris
the Goa'uld lord nodded before turning to her and
beginning to explain what he was proposing.
By
the time Osiris was done with explaining things
Athena was still undecided on her course of action. When she proposed a tour
through her city Osiris accepted and together they
left the palace. He dropped behind them and to Osiris'
left following them as she began the tour. Before they even progressed very far
Osiris was turning to gaze at him, holding his hand
out and speaking his name. He knew what Osiris was
ordering but was rather surprised. He softly questioned, "My Lord are you
certain that...?"
"Yes
Daniel. I have told you where I desire you to be, not behind me beside me. Now
come attend your lord."
"Yes
My Lord if that is what you wish."
"It
is what I require, my precious Daniel."
Daniel
bowed before softly replying, "Thank you, My Lord."
Osiris only smiled as Daniel moved to where Osiris
required him to stand. He gently grasped Daniel's hand before leaning over and
whispering, "Be alert for any dangers, my precious. Remember to always be
alert whether we are on a friendly planet or a hostile planet."
"Yes
My Lord."
Osiris' smile broadened further before he returned his focus to Athena who
was still watching them and their interactions again seeing Osiris'
love for his slave. Yes maybe she would agree to this alliance for if things
started to go sour then all she would have to do in retaliation is to have his
favored captured or destroyed. Osiris had let his
guard down long enough for her to see his strongest weakness and if she had to
she would cripple him by playing on that weakness.
As Osiris gazed at Athena he felt unease fill him. She was
looking at Daniel again and this was not the first time. He felt suddenly
certain that she could not be trusted at all. She was no doubt thinking of
taking Daniel as her own or using him against him. He would not give her the
chance to do either. He unconsciously tightened his hold on Daniel's hand
drawing a soft prompt of ‘My Lord’ from him in response. When he looked at
Daniel he could see the questions there and wondered if Daniel realized that
Athena was probably plotting a future retaliation should things not work out
even as they spoke. He knew that she could be a danger but when she had spoke
her suspicions of his feelings for Daniel he knew then that she could prove a
very dangerous enemy and a very risky ally. He silenced his worries as they
began their tour. He made certain to hold Daniel's hand the entire time knowing
that he didn't like to be led about but sensing that if he didn't maintain his
hold on Daniel that Athena's guards just might attempt to snatch him away and
he was not intending on losing Daniel ever.
As
they continued to walk he noticed his servant casting his eyes about in awe as
he looked at the elegant statues and the many people who inhabited Alandria. He tensed when Sarah spoke, 'My Lord look at him.
See how he gazes about? This, this is what Daniel loves. To meet new cultures,
to see how they live, how they interact... He could spend months
just...watching them. This...this is what brings him to life for he has always
had a deep love and appreciation for new cultures.'
He
nodded becoming quickly involved in watching his servant finding that to see
such fire, such excitement within him was a magnificent thing to behold indeed
and as Daniel continued to stare at everything Osiris
found that he wanted to make love to this man. He decided then and there that
it would be tonight. Tonight he would make his offer. He was quite certain that
Daniel would deny him but he knew just how to gain his
servant's complete compliance and if he had to resort to such tactics to gain
Daniel's compliance then he would be solving two problems at once. Tonight...it
would be tonight.
After
the tour was completed they returned to the palace to finish their meeting.
Athena agreed to accept an alliance with them. He thanked her and told her that
he would keep in touch. He quickly turned to Daniel urging him to come with
him. He suddenly felt very nervous and anxious about what he planned to propose
to Daniel tonight and wanted to get things progressing. Together they prepared
to return to the ship. He led Daniel to the transport rings feeling his
excitement continuing to build as he prepared to move their relationship onto
yet another more intimate level.
* * * * * *
ABOARD
OSIRIS' SHIP
The
Ultimatum
Osiris smiled as he focused on his faithful servant. Daniel Jackson served
him well in all capacities except for one and tonight he planned to change
that. As the rings descended around them and transported them to the ship Osiris went to the helm. He said, "Come my servant, I
want you to see Alandria from above."
"Yes
My Lord."
Daniel
approached and looked out the main window seeing the planet of Alandria beneath them. Like before he noticed the stark
beauty of the planet from space. Osiris watched him
before saying, "My servant tonight I have a new request to make of
you."
"Yes
My Lord?"
He
continued to watch Daniel as he gazed with great interest at Alandria before softly informing, "I want you to
service me in all ways... You function very well as an
eunuch yet you do not have a healthy avenue with which to release your sexual
desires."
Daniel
jerked his head up stuttering, "My...My Lord, I do not..."
"You
will be granted such avenues beginning on this night. I require my eunuch to
attend me in my bed. I require you to service me in every way, my precious
eunuch."
"No...no..."
Oh
God no. He couldn't do that! The Goa'uld lord was
demanding he join him in their bed for more than just rest. He swallowed hard
as dread filled his heart. He had known that Osiris
desired him and wanted him since the beginning but the Goa'uld
lord never did anything other than touch him and stroke him. Now he was
demanding full service from his slave. Oh God, he couldn't...no... He started
to shake his head in denial when the system lord quietly threatened, "If
you refuse to comply than I fear a hefty consequence will result."
A hefty consequence? What would the snake do to him if he refused to
come to his bed and service him in every way? There was no way he would
willingly give his body to the snake. No way in hell! He watched Osiris intently hoping to see uncertainty in those eyes of
Sarah's but all he saw was determination and pure lust. Oh God this was not
good at all!
Osiris touched the side of Daniel's face noticing that he instantly pulled
away. He continued to pressure Daniel as he leaned in and staked his claim on
his young servant's lips. Daniel reacted instantly by shoving him away and
refusing to do as demanded. Osiris giggled at his
sudden show of defiance before teasing, "After tonight you will no longer
pull from me. You will no longer deny me my pleasure and you will do whatever I
demand of you."
Daniel
automatically jerked his head no before verbalizing his answer, "No. I'll
never give myself to you."
"Oh
you will, my precious eunuch. You will."
"Or what?"
Yes,
there it was...defiance, anger, outrage, uncertainty...his slave's eyes were
sparking blue fire as he held himself rigid sending off signals of his stubborn
nature. Oh yes, Daniel Jackson was definitely disturbed by his lord's newest
request, but regardless of his feelings he would do as his lord demanded of him
or he would pay a very high price for his resistance.
Osiris tossed his head casually letting Sarah's long blond hair fly about him
before it settled once again across his elegant shoulders. He then focused on
Daniel, a taunting grin plastered across his face before sighing loudly and
commenting, "What? Yes, what...hmm do you see this button?"
"Yes..."
"Do
you know what it does?"
"No."
"Here
let me show you."
Osiris then pressed the button feeling his smile broaden even further as fire
suddenly erupted from his ship hurtling through space towards the planet of Alandria. He watched in amusement as the fire impacted with
the planet triggering a brilliant explosion that sent debris and rock into
space making Alandria a new asteroid belt. All that
remained were thousands upon thousands of rocks floating through space dotting
the entire view port before him. He became aware of the dead silence now in the
main chamber and of the silent, horrified young man now standing beside him. He
turned to watch his favored silently observing him as he approached the view
port and pressed the palm of his right hand against the window. He could see
that there was no color present in Daniel's face any longer. His eyes were now
huge and rimmed with unshed tears as he stared agape at the thousands of rocks
that now made up the small planet of Alandria. He
shook his head and clucked his tongue at Daniel who remained still, as still as
those statues that had littered the streets of the destroyed planet below.
Daniel
could only stare frozen, horrified, as the beautiful planet of Alandria suddenly blew up before his eyes. As fire shot
from Osiris' ship towards the planet he could feel
his heart jumping to his throat and bile threatening to make an appearance as
he realized just what Osiris was intending. As the
planet blew up before his eyes all he could do was clench his eyes tightly shut
and try vainly to block out the screams and wails of those innocent victims.
They screamed so loud in his mind, so horribly loud...innocence destroyed by
evil in one fell swoop. Osiris exterminated an entire
world...and it was all his fault. Oh God no!
As
he opened his eyes seeing only floating debris where Alandria
once was he could feel the tears begin to fall unbidden down over his cheeks.
He tried to stop their descent and silently approached the view port pressing
his hand to it and staring through a fine sheen of fresh tears feeling the
destruction of that planet and all that lived there consume him. Oh God, he
hurt so badly inside for those who had just died senselessly. His heart hurt so
damned badly that he was certain it was openly bleeding all over the floor. He
wanted to curl up and die. He wanted to scream, to yell, to thrash and to
kill...how could the system lord be so cold, so devious so damned uncaring?
How?
He
refused to look at Osiris choosing instead to
continue to stare at what was left of Alandria
wishing he could bring that planet back and all those people but it was
impossible...totally impossible. Without looking up at Osiris
he quietly asked, "Why? Why did you...?"
"Because you denied me, my precious eunuch."
"I..."
"Their
destruction is all your fault. You denied me."
"But
the alliance, I thought..."
"You
thought wrong. From this day forward you will serve me in all capacities. You
will also meet my sexual desires. If you refuse then I will find another more
populated planet to destroy. Is that understood?"
Daniel
hung his head in sadness and defeat. He knew that he was effectively trapped.
He would have to make himself sexually available to Osiris
or people would suffer and die for his defiance. He wanted to cry, to scream,
to beg and to yell but all he did was simply nod his head yes feeling another
part of himself dying as he did so.
Osiris grinned wickedly as he approached Daniel pressing his hand to Daniel's
face. Daniel closed his eyes shut but didn't jerk away like earlier. Osiris chuckled huskily as he said, "You will do
whatever I desire of you, my precious eunuch and you will enjoy every minute of
your submission. If you refuse to give me your passion, your desire, your
pleasure and your arousal then I will destroy a planet also. You must learn to
respond automatically to my strokes and caresses. You must learn to feel heat
and passion flooding you after only the lightest of touches that I apply to
your body. You will be trained to respond instantaneously, to give me your body
and to give me your desire. You will learn how to please me at a moment's
notice. If I require you to pleasure me with your tongue you will be grateful
for the request and will do your best to satisfy me while allowing yourself to
get caught up in the storm. Is that understood my precious?"
He
hung his head further as he quietly muttered, "Yes My Lord."
"If
you cannot do as I ask then I will destroy more planets. I want a sexually
desirable slave. I want a slave who becomes addicted to my touches and caresses
to the point that you learn to seduce me as well. Your education shall start
this evening. You will learn to be sensual and resonate
sex in every move and gesture you make. I want you to be the most alluring,
sexually desirable slave there is. I want you to carry yourself in such a way
that people know you are alluring and passionate. People know you please your
master very well. You will respond to me whenever I desire you to no matter
where we are. You will learn to be able to pleasure yourself before me and you
will learn to pleasure yourself and I even while
locked up in chastity. Is that understood?"
He
again spoke those simple words, "Yes My Lord," feeling as if he was
pronouncing himself condemned.
"Very
good... Your first lesson, my precious love is to learn to crawl for your
master."
Daniel
gasped when the lead was yanked and Osiris started to
lead him to their chamber. He glanced back at Alandria
shaking his head sadly as he quickly brushed his arms across his eyes trying to
rid his face of the tears he knew now marred them. He swallowed hard as Osiris told Zeenan that they were
not to be disturbed before once again resorting to dragging him to their
bedroom by his leash. Why did he suddenly feel as if he were being dragged to
his execution? He shivered as he thought of how his captivity would now change.
He had no choice but to service the Goa'uld lord in
whatever way he requested. He felt as if he were a damned pig being led to the
slaughter. He felt as if he was now trapped and there would never be any chance
at escape for him. He felt as if he were condemned to this hell for all
eternity. Oh God Jack ...Jack, please help me! Please come for me, Jack! Oh
God, please Jack! I need you now! Please help me! His silent screams and silent
pleas fell on deaf ears for no one was listening to him. No one gave a damn
about him. No one gave a damn about his feelings and his desires. He was a
slave, plain and simple...Osiris' slave and now he
would become Osiris' bitch...oh God Jack, please
forgive me for what I'm about to do...for what I have to do.
THE
SACRIFICE
Daniel's
Sexual Training Begins
Once
in their bedchamber Osiris ordered him to stand as he
unlocked the chastity belt. He watched with growing interest as his slave's
genitals were freed. Ah yes, Daniel Jackson was very well endowed. He could
never emasculate such a beautiful man. He sat his slave's chastity belt on the
bed then focused on him yet again speaking seductively, "Come, let me see
you crawl."
Daniel
felt a flush of heat travel up across him. Osiris had
only seen him naked a few times and he didn't much care for being fully exposed
to the snake, but he quickly pushed his embarrassment deep inside so that Osiris wouldn't be able to see his discomfort before
replying, "Yes My Lord."
Daniel
swallowed hard but lowered to his hands and knees knowing what would happen if
he refused. Osiris said, "You must learn to
crawl using languid movements. Your duty is to seduce me using your body... You
will be taught many ways to please me and satisfy me. You will learn to use
your body to seduce me and to arouse me. If I cannot get excited by watching
you then I will enjoy choosing the next planet to destroy."
"Yes
My Lord."
Daniel
swallowed hard as he thought of Jack and how Jack could make him feel. He felt
his body becoming excited as he imagined he was crawling for Jack, for the love
of his life. He started to move slowly hearing his lead chain fall against the
floor as he moved. He focused on slowly crawling towards Osiris
making his moves slow and seductive. He moved like a panther gazing hungrily
towards Sarah as if he were going to devour her at any moment. When he
approached her he pressed a light kiss to her right ankle then trailed his
tongue all the way up over the leg feeling humiliated and degraded as he
focused on Osiris' face. The Goa'uld
lord was obviously immensely pleased with his little show for his gaze didn't
falter. The Goa'uld lord's gaze only grew darker and
more brazen. He knew that he wouldn't be able to make it through this unless he
separated from himself so he focused intently on locking up his heart and
allowing only primal need and desire to come out. The more he drew on that
primal desire the easier it became to separate him self from the actual act of
seduction.
Osiris pressed his hand to Daniel's chin pushing it upwards saying, "I
want to see your eyes. I want to see passion in those eyes. If you cannot give
me all of your passion, all of your desire, all of your hunger, my precious
servant then another planet will be lost."
"Yes
My Lord."
Osiris then pressed a finger to Daniel's lips before continuing, "Your
second lesson my precious is to learn to suckle, lick and kiss anything I place
near or against your mouth. As soon as something is pressed to your lips or is
near your lips you must tug it into that delectable mouth of yours and lavish
it with your tongue."
"Yes
My Lord."
Daniel
hesitantly kissed Osiris' finger and the Goa'uld lord continued, "Now wrap your mouth around it
and suckle it."
Daniel
obeyed feeling ill as he complied with Osiris'
orders. Oh God, he couldn't do this. He couldn't! He felt as if he were
betraying Jack and flaunting himself before the snake. God this was so
humiliating. He tried harder to separate his mind, his spirit, his soul, his
heart and his love from the act he was conducting. He had to do something. He
had to keep his heart safe and secure for Jack. He had to keep his love safe
and pure for Jack. Osiris might have his body; his
desire but he would never get his love...sex that's what this was. Pure, raw sex with no emotions only passion, only basic, primal
instinct. He was merely reacting primitively. He could do this...after
all this was simply sex, lust and passion there were no real or true emotions
involved for he didn't love Osiris, he hated Osiris. He could do this. He just had to guard his heart.
He would willingly give up his body to the snake to ensure that no other planet
was destroyed like Alandria...oh God all those people
now dead because of him. It was only this morning that they had met with the
system lord on that planet. It was only this morning that he had looked out the
windows of the main palace and watched the inhabitants of the planet chatting
and living. They were gone now, destroyed in mere seconds, every last one of
them gone and it was all his fault, for if he would
have willingly given himself to Osiris then those
people would have been spared. He yelped as he felt a brutal yank on his lead
chain and found himself focusing on Osiris. He
questioned, "My Lord, what is wrong...?"
"You
must not become distracted while you are pleasing me, slave. Distractions will
cost you as well. When you make love to me, when you seduce me, when you openly
please me you will focus on me and only me. There will be nothing to focus on
but us and what we do. You have much to learn. I shall have My'la
educate you further on how to please me."
"I'm
sorry, My Lord. It will not happen again. You will not need to bring My'la to me, My Lord. I shall learn from you."
"Yes,
you shall my precious slave. You shall."
Feeling
rage and humiliation burn within as he forced himself to willingly yield to the
Goa'uld lord by bowing his head and down casting his
eyes in a show of respect and surrender Daniel timidly inquired, "What
does My Lord wish me to do? How may I please you, My Lord?"
"Hmm,
that is much better. Yes you are a fast learner, my precious slave."
Osiris pressed his finger to Daniel's lips and smiled as Daniel immediately
tugged the finger into that warm, moist, delectable mouth taunting and
tormenting with that wonderful tongue of his. He moaned as Daniel proceeded to
suck on the finger. Yes, his slave was a fast learner. He would be trained in
no time.
Osiris grinned wickedly as he continued, "Very good...very, very
good."
Daniel
forced himself to continue submitting to the Goa'uld
lord's orders and commands reminding himself that he
had to do whatever it took to survive and to ensure that no other planet or
person would be placed at Osiris' mercy due to his
stubbornness and his spirit. It was taking all the self-control he had to keep
from striking out at the snake and fighting him. He continually found himself
fighting Osiris and killing him in his thoughts. He
was definitely not cut out for being submissive. It went against his very
nature to remain so complacent and so demure to anybody, but he would do
whatever it took to ensure that everyone would stay safe. He had no other
choice in the matter. Osiris spoke just then
disrupting his straying thoughts as he continued, "Lesson three involves
your basic position training. I will teach you to assume different positions on
my command. As you obey my commands you will address me as master. Is that
understood?"
"Yes
My Lord."
"Your
first position is the kneeling position. You already know what I expect when I
make that command for you have knelt at my feet often enough."
"Yes
My Lord."
"When
I choose to extend certain punishments or desire your utmost respect you will
perform the kneel forward position. When I demand an
apology or you do something to anger me then you will assume this position to
show that you are truly sorry for your crimes and to plead for the forgiveness
and mercy of your god."
Kneel
forward? What the hell was that? Daniel didn't like the direction this
conversation was going. He hated the trainings Osiris
demanded he take for often he felt degraded and humiliated. The speech training
was the hardest for him to grasp for he wasn't use to speaking in softer,
meeker tones to anyone. My'la had taught him how to
speak when addressing his lord and when addressing other system lords. The
things she taught him weren't too hard to grasp in general but every time he
was ordered to address her as he would his lord and he failed at the task his
collar would zap him. He recalled those lessons even now. She had been in the
room with him and one guard. He hadn't realized the significance of that guard
until he failed to do as he was taught. The guard chose when to trigger the
damned collar and when to leave him be. Each time he failed
to use the submissive tones when addressing Osiris he
was jolted and each time the jolt was more painful than the previous.
Needless to say he learned how to appropriately address his lord in a very
short time. He hated having to speak in such meek tones but knew the
consequences if he failed to learn the appropriate tones to use. Luckily for
him Osiris only required he use those softer tones
when addressing him directly. All other times he was permitted to speak as he
wanted and when he wanted.
He
clenched his hands into fists feeling anger and frustration flow through him. Osiris said that he would be trained. He had called it
position training. From the sounds of that he was certain he was about to learn
other ways in which to properly carry himself as a damn slave while with his
lord. He had to get away from Osiris. He had to wait
for the best time to make such an escape. Along with his desperate need to flee
he wanted to defy and enrage. He was tired of being commanded and treated like
a goddamned slave! He hated it, hated being a prisoner, hated being Osiris' pet and hated being his slave. He knew he had no
choice in the matter though for if he failed to obey every order or react to
the snake as he wished then a planet would be destroyed. Along with that planet
Osiris would make it his goal in life to find his
friends and destroy them as well as Earth in order to keep him subservient and
meek. The son of a bitch!
Osiris watched his servant intently before continuing, "The first
position you must learn is the kneel forward position.
You will assume every position I command you to get into and you will practice
them for your lord until you are able to assume them without hesitation."
"Yes
My Lord."
"You
are already in the kneeling position. From this position, my precious slave,
you must place both of your hands a foot in front of your knees, palms down. Do
so now!"
"Yes
My Lord."
Daniel
felt anger and defiance again surge forth and wanted to defy the snake but
didn't dare take such a chance at the moment. He pressed his hands to the
floor, palms down and awaited his next instruction.
Osiris grinned wickedly as he continued, "Your thumbs should touch
forming a sixty degree angle and your index fingers should also touch forming a
triangle directly in front of your body."
Daniel
complied waiting for his next direction and feeling
his need to oppose the Goa'uld lord continue to grow
within.
Osiris continued, "Your wrists remain straight...very good my dear
slave. Now you are to bow to me pressing the top of your forehead directly in the
triangle you formed with your hands."
He
was to bow before Osiris...hell no! He refused to do
as ordered hissing when Osiris depressed the button
on the device connected to his collar. Instantly pain filled him and he
screamed collapsing to the floor as his body began to convulse in response to
the new pain. He immediately gripped his throat, clutching desperately at the
collar wanting to tear it off but not having the ability to do so. He could
feel heat and electric surging throughout his body. As quickly as the pain
began it suddenly ceased and Daniel found himself curling up on the floor still
clutching desperately at his throat and trying to fight back the tears of pain
that wanted to come. Oh God, he hurt so badly now! He tried to catch his breath
swallowing hard as Osiris spoke softly in his ear,
"I have not had to punish you with this device in a very long time, my
pet. I believe you forgot it even existed. I have the device set slightly above
the medium setting. You shame me by forcing me to resort to inducing such pain
on your beautiful body for your defiance and resistance. Now you will apologize
to your lord or you will be dragged to the whipping post and lashed for
opposition. Those are your choices, my dear slave. You must choose which you would
prefer. Of course if neither of those choices are
satisfactory then your third option is to witness the destruction of yet
another planet and I will make certain the next planet I choose is much more
populated than Alandria was. CHOOSE!"
Daniel
cursed wanting to strike out at the snake. He had forgotten the pain the damned
collar was capable of emitting to his body. Shit, how could he have forgotten
that so quickly? Son of a bitch! He listened to the snake give him his choices
and knew that he really didn't have much of a choice so pushing down his
impulses to attack the evil lord Daniel focused on placing himself back into
the humiliating role of the passive, subjugated servant who did as his master
bid of him always. He rose shakily to his knees then again placed his hands a
foot in front of his knees, palms pressed to the floor, fingers lightly
touching to form the triangle before his body then swallowed back his disgust
at himself as he obediently lowered placing the top of his forehead in the triangle
effectively assuming the kneel forward position for his master.
Osiris grinned wickedly as Daniel willingly moved into his newest position.
He walked around the man bowing pathetically at his feet admiring the position
he held his body in. As he circled behind Daniel his smile only broadened
further and he licked his lips as he admired the view the position afforded him
of his servant's gorgeous assets. The position effectively exposed Daniel's
buttocks, anus and genitals. The man's testicles were also very exposed for his
viewing pleasure. Yes, he would definitely have to order his servant into this
position often. He chuckled lightly as his host stirred stepping forward also
admiring the position Daniel Jackson was now being forced to assume. He could
feel her anger and sadness for his servant's obvious humiliation at having to
assume the very submissive and demeaning position. His smile only broadened as
along with sensing his host's anger and sadness he could sense her pleasure and
excitement at seeing the man she desired remaining so humble at her feet. Oh
yes, Sarah Gardner was becoming quite satisfied with the power and strength he
afforded her with by taking her as a host. She was beginning to draw much
pleasure from seeing many of his victims put in their proper places. She
especially seemed to draw much enjoyment out of seeing the men under his legion
and under his rule willingly suffering extreme humiliation to serve him. He was
certain that he would have little difficulty with her when he informed his
defiant slave of the punishment for his refusal to submit.
Daniel
could feel a warm blush spreading up across his neck and face as he felt cool
air rushing across his buttocks and anus indicating to him just how exposed he
now was. He felt humiliated in this position. In fact, the position openly
exposed him to the Goa'uld lord for examination. Osiris could easily gain access to his groin and anus if he
so chose. He closed his eyes tightly as he heard the Goa'uld
lord softly moaning behind him. He could just picture the lust and pleasure in
the snake's eyes at seeing his slave being made to hold himself wide open for
easy exploration. Oh God, how long would he have to remain like this? How long?
Osiris continued to smile very pleased with the position Daniel was now
maintaining. He prepared to punish the man for his defiance and pulled out a
little device to help his servant realize who controlled his body completely.
He then lowered behind Daniel Jackson reaching around the man's waist and
gripping the man's flaccid penis in his hands as he casually slid a metal cock
ring on the man's beautiful assets. He carefully slipped first one testicle
then the other through the ring before feeding the man's flaccid penis through
it and sliding it to the base of the man's genitals. After making sure the
device was pressed firmly against the man's body he released his hold. He then
proceeded to reach between the man's legs to wrap his hand firmly around his
servant's penis and began to pump his hand up and down over the man's glorious
dick.
Daniel
jumped forcing himself to still and allow the snake to openly fondle him
reminding himself over and over that he had no choice. As Osiris
took his time fitting another device on his body Daniel was a bit concerned.
Just what the hell was the snake fitting on his body now? He felt the ring
being slipped over his testes and penis and swallowed hard gasping as Osiris then proceeded to rub his penis. He cursed and
clenched his eyes tightly shut as his body betrayed him by responding almost
instantly to Osiris' touches. As his dick hardened he
hissed feeling his erection hardening so much that the new device now fitted on
his body tightened. A fuckin' cock ring! The son of a
bitch! Obviously Osiris was determined to make him respond
whether he wanted to or not.
Osiris grinned wickedly as Daniel hardened immediately under his careful
caresses successfully sporting one hell of an erection due to his lord's
careful ministrations. He stood before his still bowing servant then said,
"My dear slave soon you will learn your proper place. I should not have to
continue to remind you of what you now are. Since you defied me by refusing to
yield to your master's command you will be punished. You will remain in your
kneel forward position until I release you. Is that understood?"
"Yes
My Master."
"Good.
That means should I desire to keep you here all night bowing to me then you
will remain and you will not move. Is that understood?"
"Yes
My Master."
"Very
good...since my slave has been having much difficulty in following my rules and
orders I have added another rule to your training. I believe My'la may have already covered this but I will repeat it.
As long as you are being trained you will cease using personal words to refer
to yourself. You may no longer use my, I or me when referring to yourself. If
you do so you will suffer greatly. You are now restricted from using personal
pronouns to refer to yourself. When you need to ask me something or are speaking
of yourself you must replace any references to yourself as an individual with
'your slave', 'this slave' and 'slave'. Is that understood?"
"Yes
My...your slave understands, Master."
"Very good. The only time you may place I, my or me in your sentences is when you
address me directly. When you use my before master this demonstrates that you
see me as your master. Is that understood?"
"Yes
My Master."
Daniel
cursed as Osiris made the newest rule. The fuckin' snake was doing anything he could think of to gain
complete control of him. The bastard!
Osiris continued, "You will remain in your kneel forward position. If
you fail to maintain it you will be punished severely. You must beg my
forgiveness and this is how you will begin to do so."
Osiris then left to command one of his guards to the room. Once the guard was
there he said, "Your duty is to monitor my slave. He is being punished. He
must remain in this position until I decide to set him free. Here is the device
to trigger his collar if he fails to do as commanded. He may not move for any
reason. I have some things that I must see to. I will return when they are
complete."
"Yes
My Lord."
"Let
me remind you that if my slave reports to me that you have mistreated him by
placing your hands on him or harming him then you will be sent to the dungeons
after being flogged for disrespect. If you make any negative comments to him or
try to harm him in any other way I will not be very forgiving. Is that
understood?"
"Yes
My Lord."
Osiris then bent down beside Daniel saying, "You are to remain in this
position until I release you. If you move my guard will punish you. I do not
care if your legs go numb or your arms start to cramp. You will learn to
willingly endure for your lord and you will learn to always obey your master.
You must remain in this position until I release you. Is that understood?"
"Yes
My Master."
"I
will be back later. Enjoy your punishment, slave."
Daniel
swallowed hard hearing the movements of the guard behind him. He felt totally
humiliated and disgraced knowing that not only has Osiris
seen him in this degrading position but now so has his one guard. He closed his
eyes as his head started to throb. How long would Osiris
leave him in this room with the guard? How long would Osiris
make this punishment last? He knew the results of remaining in one position for
too long. It would be very painful and he really wasn't looking forward to it.
He inhaled sharply as the guard spoke, "You really should not disappoint
our lord, slave. You are his honored chosen yet you insist on throwing your
high status and privilege in your lord's face. I do not understand why he
chooses to deal with such a troublesome slave. You appeal to him though I do
not understand why that may be. Perhaps he senses that you are one whose spirit
will not be easily broken. You should be thankful that he allows you to keep
those traits for many of his slaves were punished until they learned to be
totally subservient to their lord. Why he allows his favored to remain spirited
is just as confusing as why he should desire to keep you. In the short amount
of time you have been here you have gained the respect of many. Many say that
you are the perfect one to replace their beloved goddess Isis..."
Daniel
remained silent wondering why the guard chose to speak with him so openly all
of a sudden. What the hell was going on? Why was the guard even taking the time
to suggest he obey his lord? He wanted the damned guard to leave him be but
found that in focusing his attention on the
"Hmm, a slave who speaks without permission. You are either incredibly
brave or incredibly stupid..."
“I'd
much rather be incredibly brave. Thank you very much."
He
tensed in preparation for the button to his collar to be depressed surprised
when the device was not triggered. The guard smiled as he continued, "Ah,
I see you know of what is correct and incorrect. You know that by speaking
without permission you are to be punished immediately. You even stiffen your
body in preparation for the expected penalty of your crimes yet you still speak
out of turn, you still challenge those who have authority over you and you
still challenge your god. You Tau'ri are very foolish
creatures indeed to so openly enrage your god knowing that you will suffer for
such defiance. I will never understand your race..."
"Maybe
you should try..."
"Spirit
and fire... Yes, you are still a proud warrior, a proud individual even knowing
that you are no longer free. You are still strong even knowing that you are now
a slave with no rights except those your master decides to grant you. You are
indeed a very interesting creature Daniel Jackson. I should like to know why
you feel you must always resist, always fight instead of openly accept what
your lord has so graciously granted you."
Instead
of answering the question Daniel stated, "Osiris
may own my body, he may own me but he does not own my spirit or my soul. He
doesn't own my heart. He doesn't control me completely and he never will."
Daniel
again tensed preparing for the punishment he was certain would soon be
delivered as he continued to break the rules of his station and speak out
against Osiris. He listened intently for any sound or
indication that the guard was ready to delve out his deserving punishment. The
seconds stretched into minutes and yet he heard nothing and felt no pain. When
he was certain that the guard would remain silent the
"Uh,
thanks...I think..."
"With
your status and your importance to our lord you have much power though you do
not even realize that you do. You should be using your abilities to help our
lord instead of fighting him."
The
guard fell silent yet again and Daniel waited for him to speak more but he said
nothing. Daniel's attention was drawn back to his present predicament as he
felt a sharp pain travel up through his left leg. He winced wanting desperately
to move that leg but knowing the penalty for such actions. He remained stubbornly
still determined to prove to Osiris that he could
handle this cruel punishment.
As
time ticked by Daniel began to wonder just how long he’d been in this position.
His body continued to complain by sending little shooting pains through his
limbs reminding him again and again of how the position was making his body
more rigid and more stiff the longer he stayed
completely still. He clenched his eyes tightly shut as he felt his left foot
growing ever number the longer he held it in position. God at this rate he
would be permanently stuck in this torturous pose. It was taking nearly all of
his self-control to keep his complaints quiet and to hold his body so rigid and
so still. Shit, what had Osiris said? He would learn
to willingly endure for his lord...well, now that seemed to be what the hell he
was doing right now! Shit! How long had he been in this position already? What
time was it? Had it been hours or merely minutes since Osiris
pronounced this punishment for his defiance? How long did he have left and what
the hell would happen if he failed to do as was ordered? Osiris
could be kind when he chose to be but when he was angered he could be nasty and
evil. He could be downright scary. The snake was very complex. At times it
treated him as if it loved him while at other times he was treated as if he
were the vilest thing on the Earth...or in space...or on the planet...ah hell,
the vilest thing in the universe? Yeah, universe sounded much better...shit,
what the hell was he doing now? Examining his goddamn metaphors for accuracy?
Was he crazy? Hell, he was something for the pain in his body and the stiffness
was driving him insane. If he wasn't soon granted permission to move he would
damned well do so despite the consequences...but then again Osiris
had told him...started to threaten him with the destruction of his friends as
well as another planet...who's to say the snake wouldn't accept the destruction
of another planet as just punishment for his slave's inability to endure such
suffering? Damn he was trapped, he was fuckin'
trapped here! He had to get away! He just had to!
He
started to think about Sam, Teal'c and Jack...God,
were they even still looking for him or had they given up the search? He was
MIA...had been MIA for more than a month so who's to say that his friends would
even still be searching for him? Maybe they gave up and decided to leave him to
his fate...NO! He would not think like that! His friends would never abandon
him! NEVER! God, he had to stop thinking that way. He knew that the SGC would
keep searching as well.
He
found himself wondering if he would ever grow used to space travel on board a
ship. They spent half their time on the planet of Bursiris
and half their time aboard his lord's vessel. The ship was very stable
considering it was traveling very fast through space. Half the time he forgot
they were even on a ship. He actually liked traveling through space
occasionally but Osiris' patterns of flight were very
sporadic. They would sometimes spend a week or several weeks aboard the ship,
returning to Bursiris for a week or so then board
again. It was rather odd. He sensed that Osiris
wasn’t too crazy about being aboard his ship. He seemed to prefer stable
ground...probably another influence from Sarah. Sarah hated to fly and had been
scared to death of heights. She was better with them now but still didn't like
them. Osiris probably avoided his ship as often as
possible because he could feel Sarah's uneasiness. In fact, she was probably
more influential at those times...she probably surfaced and dominated more often
due to her huge fear of heights.
He
winced as his right leg started to spasm gently. Shit did that ever hurt! Where
the hell was Osiris and why the hell wasn't he back?
Someone needed to inform the snake that the human body just was not built to
take such stress on it. SHIT! God did this position ever hurt! Son of a bitch!
How much longer was the snake going to torment him like this? How much longer?
He was certain that he would not be able to rise to his feet after spending so
much time in this position. He really didn't like the idea of relying on the
snake for support but was certain that by the time Osiris
decided to get his damned snaky ass in here he would have no other choice. Just
where the fuck was he? Shit, did he actually desire the snake's presence? Well,
now that was a first. Isn't it funny how being forced to remain so still in
such an uncomfortable position for forever made one desire the presence of the
bastard who ordered him to remain in the pose? God, how did Jack ever deal with
this kind of torture? He was certain that while imprisoned in
* * * * * * * *
Jack
O'Neill paced his bedroom. He couldn't sleep no matter how hard he tried. He
couldn't focus or do much of anything since Daniel was taken. God. Daniel where the hell are you? He hated the not
knowing. They were all certain that Daniel was still on that planet but with
the planet's gate now inactive they had no way to get to him except a ship.
There were no ships readily available for their use. Where was Daniel?
Jacob
Carter had told them that the planet Daniel had been captured on came under the
rule of a new system lord recently and though the Tok'ra
tried to get a spy in the system lord's midst no one could get close to him.
They still had no knowledge of just whom the Goa'uld
was that held Daniel. All they knew was that whoever this unnamed enemy was he
was gathering armies and followers by the dozens. The Tok'ra
received word of his arrival then disappearance from planets but had yet to
catch up to him.
The
only information they received from the Tok'ra
recently though was regarding some big secret meeting. Jacob had spoken to him
earlier saying that there was a meeting being set up between two system lords.
It was a hush-hush meeting and no one was certain of just who the lords were.
The Tok'ra intercepted a message regarding the
meeting. It was to take place on Naveria and it was
supposed to be very important. Jack wondered just what the hell that message
had to do with Daniel. Jacob's only response was that preparations were made
for a human slave to accompany the visiting system lord and that
slaves rarely accompanied their masters to such secret meetings. Wow, a
human slave. What the hell did that have to do with Daniel? Jack was certain
that Jacob was hoping the human slave was their missing friend. It was a slim
chance and most likely that slave wasn't his friend but Jacob was becoming just
as desperate as he was to find some indication that Daniel Jackson was still
alive and still out there somewhere. A small hope, no matter how minute it was,
is still better than no hope at all.
Jacob
needed that slave to be Daniel just as he needed that slave to be Daniel. They
both needed some sign, some indication that Daniel was still alive and still a
prisoner. They both needed proof, substantial proof. Jack was certain Daniel
lived for if he didn't his heart would probably be broken in two but there was
still that possibility hovering nearby always that Daniel just might be...Jack
shook his head refusing to accept that answer. Daniel was still alive! He knew
that he was! They just had to find him.
They
had been searching for Daniel now for what a month, two months? They still had
yet to locate him or hear anything about him. They still dialed up the planet
he had disappeared from but had little else to go on. It would be a miracle if
Daniel were this human slave being taken to the meeting...a miracle that didn't
have a chance in hell of occurring.
Jack
sighed heavily as he glanced out of his window staring up at the night sky. He
knew that Daniel was out there...somewhere. God he missed that man. He missed
going to bed at night with Daniel curled up beside him. He missed watching the
man drift asleep and listening to his soft whispers of love in the middle of
the night. He missed how those beautiful eyes would focus on him filled with
desire, passion and love. He missed his fiery mate. Daniel was his lifeline. He
lived for Daniel. He lived to taste him, kiss him, touch him, comfort him, hold
him, love him... God, he missed Daniel so badly that it hurt. He wanted to
scream and cry out about how unfair it was that he was stolen away. Why him?
Why the hell was Daniel always the one who ended up in danger or missing? Why?
He
became so frustrated that he exited his house walking aimlessly in the night
needing to find comfort and solace in the one man he could not find. Without
realizing it he found himself at Daniel's home. He entered and headed directly
for the man's bedroom laying down on the bed and inhaling the deep scent that
was all Daniel. Daniel's scent still clung to the mattress, pillows and blankets
even after being gone for several weeks. Jack didn't try to make sense of why
he could still smell his lover's scent amongst covers that should no longer be
holding onto it. He didn't care. He was just relieved that he could still enjoy
Daniel's scent even in his absence. He curled up burrowing under Daniel's
covers feeling fresh tears leak from his eyes as he recalled the man who once
lived here. God he missed that man so badly that it hurt. It hurt to breathe;
it hurt to work...it hurt to be alive when his lover was in great peril. God,
Daniel...if only you were here. If only...
* * * * * * *
*
Several
Hours Later...
Daniel
was still being made to remain in the kneel forward position.
His arms and legs were now far passed the numbing point. His body was extremely
stiff and he wanted desperately to move but knew the consequences of such
actions. He swallowed hard listening as someone entered the room feeling
relieved when Osiris excused the guard then lowered
beside him asking, "Is my servant still aching for his lord?"
Osiris then casually reached between his legs, gently wrapping his hand
around his erection. He unconsciously moaned aloud as the simple touch ignited
pleasure within. He heard Osiris chuckling and closed
his eyes tightly shut. He shivered as Sarah's voice filled the room as she
spoke in a husky voice, "Yes Daniel, that is how
you must respond to your lord always. Every touch, every caress and every brush
of my hand should inflame you, excite you and begin an insistent craving and
yearning deep within you."
"Yes
My Lord," came Daniel's whispered reply.
"Now
my precious servant that is enough training for you tonight. You may arise so
that we can go to bed. Come."
"Thank
you, My Lord."
Daniel
attempted to move hissing as pain answered his efforts. He gasped as strong
arms suddenly braced him and physically pulled him to his feet. He was again
reminded of just how physically strong a Goa’uld
could make its host. When he was on his feet his body started to quiver and he
began to softly moan in pain as feeling started to flow back into previously
numb limbs. He gasped again finding himself wrapped snugly in Osiris' arms and hoisted off of his feet being cradled as
if he were a mere child. He continued to groan and hiss as feeling continued to
flood his body. Osiris carried him to their bed and
laid him down gently urging him to lie on his stomach. Once he had Daniel
settled in the bed he spoke, "Rest, my precious Daniel. Rest and relax.
Allow me to help ease the discomfort you are now in. Shh,
shh...relax and allow me to help ease the stiffness
in your limbs and body... MY'LA!"
The
woman entered the room immediately upon her lord's call and bowed to him
noticing that his newest servant was now lying on his stomach wincing. She had
heard that he was being punished by his lord but not of how he was suffering.
She watched him assuring herself that he was not marked or bleeding. She then
focused on Osiris replying, "Yes My Lord?"
"Ah
My'la, please bring a bottle of my favorite massage
oil."
"Yes
My Lord."
She
left the room returning with the oil he requested. Then she bowed before
continuing, "Does My Lord have any other requests?"
"Yes,
please dim the lights as you leave. Light some of those candles you are so fond
of and leave us undisturbed. Return in a few hours to make certain that the
candles are properly extinguished should we happen to drift off before your
return."
"Yes
My Lord."
She
quickly did as bid leaving to retrieve some of the candles her lord requested.
After she exited their bedchamber Osiris straddled
Daniel gently hushing him as he spoke soothingly, "What I want my precious
servant to do is relax and allow me to help ease the stiffness and pain from
your body. Relax, my sweet Daniel, relax."
"Hmm,
yes My Lord."
Daniel
complied and shortly, thereafter, his hisses of pain turned into sighs of
pleasure and relief as Osiris started a slow, sensual
massage across his body starting with his neck and shoulder muscles. He inhaled
deeply as heady scents filled the room. As Osiris
started to work massage oil into his back he felt his body and mind begin to
relax as the soothing smells of ylang-ylang, sandalwood and jasmine filled the
bedchamber. He moaned softly as the small dainty fingers of Sarah's started to
work magic into the stiff, painful muscles of his neck. As the fingers gently
squeezed the tense muscles of his neck working up towards the base of his skull
he could feel the tension slipping away. He groaned louder as those same hands
moved to his shoulders. He relaxed further as those hands started to work the
kinks out of his muscles. The first strokes started out as long, flowing and
gliding strokes. He hissed several times as fingers bit and dug into sore
muscles but it wasn't long before the pain subsided to be replaced by a warm,
tingly feeling of absolute calm. He felt himself begin to relax as Osiris continued to massage him working well-practiced
fingers into taut muscles making them soft and pliable in his hands. The
stiffness and pain subsided quickly under the newest touch. He felt those hands
working the muscles of his shoulders, neck, back and arms then trailing down to
knead at his buttocks. He wanted to yank away and fight against the sudden
intimate touch but was too relaxed.
He
faintly heard someone enter the bedchamber and wondered who was there. He
listened to the soft swooshing of feet against plush carpet and determined that
the visitor was now beside their bed. As Osiris
softly spoke he heard the Goa'uld lord saying thank
you to one of his servants and telling them that they could now leave them for
the evening. As he heard a woman's soft voice reply with a ‘yes My Lord’ he
realized their visitor was My'la. He listened to her
exit, groaning again as Osiris continued to knead and
pinch his buttocks lightly. He suddenly became aware that his penis was openly
responding to the sudden touch on his backside, throbbing and aching intensely
as it remained very hard beneath him. The cock ring was obviously functioning
well if he was still so very hard after so many hours. He felt as if he had a
damned permanent hard on that just didn't want to soften.
After
kneading his buttocks so tenderly Osiris worked on
soothing the muscles of his legs and massaging his feet. Daniel felt much more
relaxed than he had previously. He became aware that Osiris
was gently urging him to roll over onto his back and without thought he readily
complied with the order. He was completely caught off guard when Osiris suddenly bent down, planted a kiss on the tip of his
very hard cock then laved his tongue back and forth across head of his penis
several times.
Daniel
groaned feeling his breath hitch in his throat as the simple gestures sent new
heat traveling and surging throughout his body. As that warm, moist tongue
flicked across the head of his penis several more times he became aware that he
was very turned on and aching to reach climax. He desperately grasped the sheet
beneath him bunching it up in both of his hands as he moaned loudly in pleasure
and his body arched up to offer more to that tantalizing mouth now pleasuring
him. He gasped this time hissing as, in the next moment, his entire dick became
engulfed in Sarah's mouth. As he became aware that she had managed to take him
completely into her moist mouth all he could utter was, "Oh God!"
He
tried to remember that Osiris was the one who was
orally pleasuring him and not Sarah. He desperately wanted to deny the Goa'uld lord but that mouth wrapped around him just felt so
damned good. He instantly trapped his heart away so that his love for Jack
wouldn't be tainted by the amazing pleasure and desire Osiris
was now evoking within him. He allowed primal instinct to take over and allowed
the intense pleasure and euphoria to take hold of him.
As Osiris started to gently suck him and those soft hands,
Sarah's hands, started to roam Daniel was certain that he'd become lost in
passion. He felt explosive desire and heat flooding him and became enveloped in
the raw desire and pleasure such an act was inciting within him.
Osiris pulled back to the head of Daniel's penis and started to run his
tongue in circles around the swollen, pulsing head teasing and taunting him.
Daniel forced himself to watch as pleasure continued to consume him. He stared
intently at the one now servicing him so thoroughly. He felt his mouth begin to
dry as watching Osiris pay such careful close
attention to him effectively heated him up further. He hissed as Osiris raised his head focusing Sarah's eyes on his face
watching him with just as much interest as he was. As those eyes flared bright
white with a hot intensity Daniel felt his desire grow to overwhelming
proportions.
Osiris continued to watch his slave's face as he flicked his tongue rapidly
back and forth across the tip of the man's very erect penis. Oh yes, his slave
was very passionate indeed. The fire and passion that the man kept locked away
was extremely intense. He could tell that Daniel was enjoying being pleased
immensely. Oh, yes, his little slave was quite a passionate, desirable
creature. He was very pleased with his slave, very pleased. He chuckled huskily
around the man's penis as Daniel broke eye contact only to moan loudly and toss
his head back in immense euphoria. Yes, this is the side of Daniel Jackson he
had craved to see for so long. This side of the man was beautiful to behold,
indeed. The man was obviously passionate though he locked that passion away so
few ever saw this side of him. He could feel his host's body continuing to
respond to the man groaning and moaning beneath them. The heat and moisture at
his middle was very noticeable as Sarah's body yielded her fresh juices in
response to being intensely turned on. Feeling that damp,
warm, moisture between his legs drove Osiris to
distraction. Oh, yes this was one of the reasons he chose to remain in a
female body instead of finding a new male host. With a female he could
experience new pleasures and new feelings. The feel of Sarah's heat between his
legs fired him up and made him even more excited and aroused. Osiris was certain he was going to explode as his servant
spoke again, "Please, oh God please..."
Osiris continued to taunt and torment still watching Daniel's face as he
responded so openly and so willingly to his touches and intimate samplings. As
his servant spoke in a voice full of need and overwhelming desire Osiris could feel the heat between his legs only increase
as Sarah's juices continued to soak into the thin panties she so loved to wear.
He was certain they would need a thorough cleaning after tonight. He smiled
broadly as Daniel's next words came out pleadingly, "Please...oh
God...please My Lord...please... Please, I beg of you, My
Lord...please..."
"Please
what my precious? What does my precious servant require of his lord?"
Daniel
could no longer hold back his pleas of desire. He wanted to climax, hell he
ached and burned to climax. He felt as if he would explode if he soon didn't
reach his apex. As Osiris stopped his tongue action
Daniel thought he would lose it and instantly begged for release. As his lord
asked him what he required he willing answered, "My Lord, please, please..."
"Tell
me what you desire my precious. Tell me and I will grant you your desire."
"Please...oh
God...My Lord, please allow me to climax for you. Please, My Lord. I beg of you
please allow me to come for you. PLEASE!"
Osiris returned to licking Daniel then again engulfed him sucking him harder
and harder urging the man to climax. He wanted desperately to taste his servant's
sweet nectar and set to work determined to draw the prize from him. He grinned
as Daniel suddenly cried out as he finally hit orgasm. Osiris
watched him intently wanting to see the man's face as he erupted for him. When
Daniel's body finally yielded the much sought after prize Osiris
gladly drank of his offering then focused on licking the man clean before
quickly shedding his royal robes until he was as naked as his precious slave.
He smiled as Daniel continued to breathe heavily as his fulfillment was
reached. He watched the man then pressed his hot body against Daniel hearing
the man groan in pleasure the instant the skin on skin contact was made. He
then slowly slid his host's body up across that of his slave's and gently
pressed a kiss to Daniel's lips. He moaned in satisfaction and pleasure as
Daniel's arms wrapped around him to hold him closely. He snuggled in the hold
before kissing Daniel again then speaking softly, "That is how I wish my
slave to respond to me always."
Daniel
swallowed hard still trying to regain a normal semblance of breathing before
replying, "Yes My Lord."
Osiris smiled cupping Daniel's face between his hands as he continued in the
soft tone, "You just rest, my precious servant. You must be very tired.
Rest and relax."
"Hmm...yes My Lord."
As
sleep started to flow over him and passion started to dissipate Daniel realized
what he had just done. He had openly responded to his captor and betrayed Jack.
Oh God! He felt tears piercing his eye lids and quietly whispered, "Oh God
Jack please forgive me."
He
could feel the beginnings of shame fill him as the realization that he so
willingly flaunted himself and responded to the snake entered him. What had he
done? What could he do? He had no choice but to respond to the snake but he
still felt dirty and used. This was only the first time...he was certain with
the amount of lust and yearning he has seen in Osiris'
eyes that this would not be the last time he would have to give the system lord
sexual favors to keep him appeased and keep him from destroying others to
maintain his absolute obedience and submission. He had little time to focus on
that guilt though for sleep quickly claimed him.
Early the next morning he awoke finding himself still very naked and
wrapped in the silky arms of Sarah. As he opened his eyes to look at her face he
recalled a time long ago when they had been lovers. They were no longer for
Sarah was now a Goa'uld. Sarah was no more. She was a
host to a parasite being controlled by it and repressed by it. He tried to
remember what had happened the previous night and as he became aware of his
very naked state the memories of last night plagued him. Oh God he had
responded to the snake. He had willingly climaxed for the creature holding him
prisoner. He had begged to be granted release. God, Jack...Jack would probably
hate him now for he betrayed their love. He betrayed Jack. God, how could he
have so openly responded to the snake? Sure Osiris
threatened to destroy another world but could he prevent that fate from
happening? Of course not who was he trying to fool? He couldn't even save those
people on Alandria. He could feel his guilt and shame
collapsing inward on himself. He wanted to cry, to scream, to yell. He had to
escape this horrible prison. He had to escape and get free of the system lord
who was determined to own him body and soul. If he didn't get away he might
very well lose himself here.
As
the woman beside him moaned he clenched his eyes shut recalling how beautiful
and kind Sarah was before Osiris took hold of her.
She was so innocent and now she was trapped. He watched her as she slept. Her
face was as beautiful now as it had been the day Osiris
took control. She was a vision of beauty and innocence now marred by the evil
parasite within her. As he lay there watching her sleeping he
could feel his heart stirring for her. He had loved her at one time. Had
loved her and had planned to marry her...then he disappeared from her life. He
never told her he wanted to marry her even though the thought had crossed his
mind on several occasions, but their relationship just wasn't meant to be.
He
continued watching her noticing the light complexion of her face, and the
smooth contours that attained to her youthfulness. Sarah was young...too young
to have her life stolen from her by such an evil creature. Her hair was a bit
longer than it had been before, kind of like his...though his seemed to grow at
a much faster rate then hers. His hair was almost as long as it had been the
day he had first met Jack O'Neill. Boy if Jack could see him now what would he
say? He'd probably be surprised to see that the unruly mop of hair was back
hanging in his eyes and lying across his forehead...well that's what Jack had
called it before...an unruly mop...Daniel, of course, liked the longer hair but
now he wasn't so fond of it. In fact, he preferred the shorter haircut because
it made him look older, more mature and Osiris
insisted that short hair was not for him...so of course he wanted that short
hair back...maybe if his hair was shorter again he would be less appealing to
the system lord and the damned snake would be able to keep his hands to
himself. He had noticed that ever since his capture Osiris
had to touch him, stroke his hair, trace his face, rub his arm...little
gestures that spoke volumes of how much Osiris
desired to make him more than just a mere servant. The snake had been attracted
to him since the beginning. Sarah probably helped heat up the snake's desire
for him...he hated to think of all the nice little memories Osiris
probably received of his time with Sarah...they had a rather intense sex
life...to say the least. They also had an experimental sex life...when he was
with her that was the first time he ever slept with another man...Sarah had
suggested trying a threesome and invited one of her college buddies over.
Needless to say the evening was quite...stimulating. He shivered as he thought
of the other things they had experimented with in their sex life. God, please
let Osiris not have a yearning to try some of those
things.
As
she moaned again he immediately cast his eyes away. The last thing he needed
was for Osiris to realize he had been staring. He
inhaled sharply trying not to jerk away when Sarah's hand suddenly caressed the
left side of his face. It was difficult sometimes to remember that this thing
beside him wasn't Sarah. He so wanted to jerk away but the threat Osiris had made the previous night kept him immobile. He
shuddered inside as Osiris spoke, "My precious
Daniel come it is time we rise again. You must be refitted with your chastity
belt though I would much prefer you as you are..."
He
jumped as the other hand suddenly wrapped around his genitals. He wanted to
jerk away but made himself remain still. He closed his eyes as he felt that
hand caress him and gently manipulate the cock ring sliding it off his
genitals. Osiris continued, "Unfortunately you
must remain flaccid so that your beautiful penis will fit back into it's tight
metal tube...poor man having to remain flaccid, unable to touch yourself and
unable to climax while locked in chastity...but it is all for your own good,
love. All for your own good for if others were to see what an amazing piece you
have nestled between your thighs I am sure that they would desire to own you.
We must lock you back up nice and tight to keep you safe from others and safe
from yourself. After all you are a slave, my slave, and as a slave you are
forbidden to satisfy yourself. You may only satisfy yourself for your god and
no other so up...rise up and submit to My'la's care.
You may go bathe first if you would like then you must return to receive your
chastity belt. Is that understood?"
"Yes
My Lord."
"Then
go...you have no need of robes you may enter the bath house wearing nothing but
your collar and leash. I rather enjoy watching you parade about in nothing but
that sexy body of yours. You must keep it hidden so often...you will also
report to the priest for your daily shave. Is that understood?"
"Yes
My Lord."
"Actually
I shall send him to you."
“No,
please My Lord..."
"All
right then you will go see him. You will dress in your robe to report to him. I
do not wish for others to see you fully exposed to their eyes. It is a
privilege and an honor to be able to look upon my favored's
genitals."
Daniel
swallowed hard in response to that comment then rose out of the bed and entered
the bathhouse. He wasted little time bathing fearing that Osiris
might just find an excuse to join him and not wanting to have to offer his body
up for the system lord again so soon.
After
finishing he hesitantly re-entered their bedchamber and grabbed his robe,
hating the fact that he had to report to the priest daily to have his pubic
hair shaved off. Osiris didn't want him to have any
hair on or near his genitals. He requested that Daniel report to the priest
once a week to be shaved. He wrapped the robe around him and reported to the
priest feeling the humiliation that always trailed him when he was made to lay
upon the altar and spread his legs open wide for the priest to perform his
daily cleansing.
He
entered the priest's chambers feeling every nerve stand on end as the priest
approached saying, "Ah Master Daniel, you have come for your daily
cleansing."
"Yes."
"Very good. Please disrobe before me."
He
hesitantly complied with the priest's demands swallowing hard as his next order
was softly spoken, "Very good...now lay upon the
altar and open yourself for my ministrations."
God
how he hated this! Why the hell did he have to be shaved weekly and why the
hell couldn't Osiris allow him to do it himself...or
if the fuckin' snake insisted why not allow My'la or Zeenan to do it. He felt
so much more comfortable in their presence. While with the priest he felt uneasy.
He was certain that the man drew some sick, twisted pleasure from shaving him.
God this was so damned humiliating!
He
slowly sat down on the altar before lying back like he was told. He immediately
turned his head to the left closing his eyes not wanting to see the priest
preparing the razor for his cleansing. He wanted to fight and resist. He wanted
to tell the priest he would not submit to this degradation but he had no
choice. The priest had resorted to using shackles to restrain him in place when
he fought previously. He still could remember how much more humiliating that
had been. The priest had grown tired of his resistance and called in several
guards who so kindly pinned him to the altar, locked his wrists into shackles
that were imbedded into either side of the altar and grabbed his leash yanking
on it painfully while his legs were forced into stirrups that spread him
painfully open and made him shamelessly exposed for all to see. His legs had
been locked in place at the ankles, the knees and the upper thighs to insure
that he couldn't move them. Another strap had been pulled securely across his
hips and waist to secure him to the altar so that he would be unable to move
while being shaved. Along with taking his damn good old time to shave him the
priest allowed the guards to hold him immobile and to maintain the vicious hold
they had on his lead chain. The priest also took the razor across his middle
not once or twice but four times telling him he had to make certain that no
hair remained. Daniel did not care to have a repeat performance of those times.
He had been willing to cooperate with the priest the week after that but
instead of allowing him the opportunity to willingly cooperate he was again
locked into the horrible restraints and held by guards. He was made to suffer
that method of being shaved for a month. He learned to willingly cooperate with
the priest after that.
He
felt his body automatically tense as he heard the priest laying out his
materials. He then heard the next command, "Open up for me, Master Daniel.
You must widen your legs a bit more."
Daniel
obeyed still refusing to look at the priest or even watch what he was doing. He
felt the cream being applied to his groin and then the razor and forced himself
to remain still while the priest carefully shaved him. Once done the priest
cleaned him then applied soothing lotion to the area just shaved. He then said,
"Very good...one more area to shave."
God,
he hated this even more. He lifted to allow the priest to place several pillows
underneath his hips, which successfully arched his middle upwards allowing for
easy access to his anal area. He gripped the edges of the altar beneath his
fingers feeling the ancient stone dig into his palms and using that sensation
to keep his mind preoccupied while the priest shaved the hair off from around
his anus. God, why did he have to be shaved there as well? Osiris
wasn't just satisfied with his groin being shaved he wanted the hair that
naturally grew around a person's anus to be shaved as well. A gentle tap to his
right hip indicated that he could lift up again and the pillows were removed.
He sat up and accepted his robe from the priest's hand. He quickly put it back
on then forced himself to bow to the priest in a show of respect and gratitude
as he said, "Thank you for my daily cleansing, my priest."
"You
are quite welcome. I shall see you again next week, Master Daniel."
He
quickly exited the priest's chamber feeling ash in his mouth. He hated having
to thank the damned priest for his shaving as well. This was another demand the
priest insisted upon. If he refused to thank him then the following week he
would be treated to the stirrups. How he hated having to be subservient to so
many people in Osiris' legion. It grated on his
damned nerves having to remain meek and submissive to those more powerful than
he. He had to get away from this ship, away from Osiris
and away from the place that was now his prison and his hell.
He
quickly returned to the bedchamber seeing My'la
already there awaiting his return. She said, "Are you ready to be
fitted?"
"Uh...yes..."
My'la lowered her voice to a soothing pitch as she addressed him,
"First you must relax yourself. You always become so upset when we must do
this."
Daniel
cast a shy glance at the servant before breaking the gaze and focusing on the
floor beneath his feet. My'la simply shook her head
wondering if Daniel would ever grow comfortable and relaxed with this. He was
very shy when it came to issues relating to his sexuality or to sex in general.
She had noticed early on that he needed privacy to do many things. It was
because of that need that she allowed him to bathe alone and that she didn't
walk right in when he was in their lord's chamber alone. Even her lord must
have realized that side of Daniel Jackson, for he had been slow and patient
with the man the previous night. She had watched from the doorway as Osiris massaged Daniel before setting to work pleasing him.
She had been surprised that instead of demanding Daniel satisfy
him first Osiris chose to service his servant. She
wondered if it was because he did not want to frighten the man.
She
worked on securing the belt around his waist then carefully fitting the front
shield in place. She noticed that he was a bit jittery, which was unusual...except
she knew that Daniel had just returned from the priest's chambers. He was also
more nervous and anxious after visiting the priest...another thing that
confused her. She knew that the priest would never harm Osiris'
favored or dare to touch him in any inappropriate way yet each and every time
Daniel returned from there he was more anxious. The only thing she could figure
is that the priest made him feel uneasy for some reason or another. As she
noticed the sudden increase in Daniel's breathing she spoke soothingly again,
"We are almost done, Master Daniel. You must stay calm."
"My'la, I told you to call me Daniel, not master..."
"Master
is your proper title for you serve Osiris and you are
his favored...to us you are our master..."
"No...please, just call me Daniel. I master no one."
"Daniel, why do you find it so difficult to accept the honored
title of master?"
"Because
I'm not a master...to anyone...I am a slave just like you. I am no
master."
"But
you are. You may wear the marks of a servant but all know that you are equal to
our lord. You are equal to the great goddess Isis..."
"No!
Why does everyone insist on comparing me to her...no...My'la, I'm a simple human being...a Tau'ri...an
enemy not an equal to Osiris."
"Master
Daniel, you are a very intriguing individual..."
Daniel
sighed heavily then simply replied, "Yes, so I've been told."
My'la smiled at that response then worked on finishing locking him back into
chastity. She noticed that he seemed a bit more relaxed and was relieved when
she finished securing the belt to his physique. He seemed to know the instant
she was done for he relaxed a bit then moved to the bed without her having to
tell him to. She then performed her next duty gently massaging the oil into
Daniel's flesh to make his body shine and shimmer in the light. Once she was
finished with that task she leaned down beside his right ear and whispered,
"Daniel, it is time for you to awake and rise."
Daniel's
quiet sleepy voice echoed throughout the bed chamber, "Wha...what?
What is it My'la?"
She
giggled before answering, "You fell asleep during your preparations. It is
time for you to join our lord in his throne room."
"Yeah...a
moment please..."
"Daniel,
you are a strange..."
"Don't
say it...I already know."
She
giggled again watching as he arose to his feet and headed to the lord's throne
room.
Zeenan smiled warmly as he saw Daniel enter, approach Osiris,
elegantly bow then apologize in docile yet appealing tones to his lord for
being late. Osiris merely smiled at him, nodded his
head then spoke softly, "Come Daniel. Come sit with me."
"Yes
My Lord."
Zeenan only shook his head in awe and surprise. Daniel's speech lessons were
now deeply engrained in him. He was graceful and sensual in every move, gesture
and comment he made. He had the attention of all who were present in the main
room as soon as he entered and Osiris seemed
extremely happy. In fact, Osiris has been in a much
better mood since Daniel Jackson became his prisoner and his servant. He smiled
warmly towards Daniel when he cast a glance his way and nodded his head in a
show of respect and greeting. Daniel never failed to greet all those in the
room. He never neglected to at least acknowledge one's presence. In fact, he
seemed to try his hardest to treat everyone as equals and to greet everyone in
turn. He watched the man who in such a short time earned his respect and his
allegiance. Daniel was almost like a brother to him. He viewed the man as such
and was pleased when Daniel reciprocated. He knew that Daniel was not happy
here. He desperately missed his friends, his world, and his other life yet he
tried to make the best of things. Occasionally he would find Daniel sitting by
an open view port just gazing up into the night sky. He had questioned Daniel
on several occasions about why he seemed so enamored with the stars and space.
Daniel would often simply smile and say that they made him feel calm and
relaxed. One night he had admitted that the sky made him think of places he had
visited, world's he had been to and people he had met.
* * * *
As
evening fell Daniel made his way quickly to the bathhouse wanting desperately
to sink into the water and wash away the feelings of disgust, of outrage and of
humiliation he felt upon submitting to his captor so openly and so willingly
the previous evening. He quickly undressed and rushed to the bath slowly easing
into the warm water and moaning as he slipped his body down beneath the
surface. This is what he had been waiting for all day and all evening. His body
felt so dirty and so soiled that he was desperate to clean it and scrub it.
Daniel
wasted little time seizing a washcloth and soap. He quickly applied a rich
lather to his skin then began to scrub vigorously until his skin burned and
tingled under the pressure and under the unprovoked assault. He felt so dirty
and so cheap. He needed to rinse himself off, to rinse off that touch and rid
himself of the feelings of betrayal that continued to boil within him. He
lowered into the water rinsing his body of all the soap but still felt so very
dirty so without further thought he again focused on vigorously applying a rich
lather of soap across his now burning flesh followed by forceful scrubbing that
only gave his tanned flesh a red cast and made his body hurt all the more. He
had to get rid of that scent, of that touch, of all trace of the one who had
violated him last evening. He hadn't been raped...no, he had however allowed
the Goa'uld lord to use him. He had responded to the
snake and had allowed it to draw a response from his unyielding body but he
wasn't raped. NO...men didn't get raped...it was sex, just sex...not even
sex...oral sex...that's all no rape and no assault had occurred. Osiris had been very gentle and slow. He wasn't raped. A
rape required violence...a rape required one being beaten...he had not been
beaten. He had simply been used. Osiris had been
gentle and there was no force. He hadn't been raped. HE HADN'T!
Daniel
cursed as he continued to scrub his body a third time still feeling so ashamed
and so cheap. He shook his head as he started mumbling, "No, not raped,
wasn't raped...no...just sex, sex...he gave me
pleasure and I responded that's all. THAT'S ALL!"
So
why did he feel as if he had been sexually assaulted by the Goa'uld
lord? Why did he feel as if he had been violated? Why did he feel as if he had
been ambushed and attacked? Why did he feel like he had been raped after all?
Because you were...NO! He wasn't! NO! How could it be rape? How? There was no
violence, none! Daniel unconsciously wrapped his arms around his body
protectively and started to rock slowly back and forth staring at the water
still bubbling around him. He squeezed his eyes shut as he heard a voice so
faint, a voice that sounded so much like Jack O'Neill's responding to his last
thought, 'He destroyed a planet, Daniel. He destroyed an entire race of beings
to get your cooperation. You were raped Daniel, raped. You did nothing wrong.
You were assaulted...'
NO!
No, no, NO! He silently screamed for the voice of reason, the voice that
sounded exactly like his love, to cease...of course like Jack the voice was persistent.
He whispered, "Stubborn bastard!"
Oh
God, was he losing it now? He was having a damned conversation with a voice
that sounded like Jack's. He was talking to Jack when the man wasn't even here.
He was nowhere near here. Why was he speaking with Jack as if he were in the
room? Why did the voice in his head sound exactly like his lover? Why?
He
felt shivers travel the length of his spine as that icy cold word screamed in
his head: RAPE...he had been raped... NO! No! I was not raped! It was sex, pleasure...not,
not...NO! Again that voice whispered in his mind making him feel even more
anxious and upset, 'Yes you were, Daniel. You haven't betrayed anyone. You were
betrayed...you were attacked and used. He destroyed a planet Daniel...you
didn't want sex, even said no but he still found a means to force your hand. In
my book that's rape...that's rape Daniel.'
"Shut
up Jack! Shut up! I can't handle this! I can't! Didn't happen! It never
happened!"
'It
did and the sooner you realize it the sooner you will be able to begin to
heal.'
"NO!
NO!"
He
curled inward on himself, folding like a chair making him self into a small ball feeling water running down over his exposed
skin and feeling fear, pain, anger, rage and shame flood him. Oh God, oh God he
had been...he had been...and it would happen again...it would. Osiris wouldn't be satisfied with just one night. The Goa'uld lord seemed extremely pleased with how well his
servant functioned in the bedroom. Yeah, I'm his perfect little fuck toy now.
He won't get rid of me. He'll never let me go. Never.
Trapped,
he was trapped. He wanted to cry but all he felt was this intense rage and
anger and it was all directed at one individual, at one vindictive creature. He
wanted to hurt that snake, to hurt him and make him pay for what he had done.
He wanted to hurt...he so wanted to make that serpent suffer as he was now
suffering. God he was becoming something he hated and despised. He was becoming
a creature without a heart, one that would kill to escape and not care of what
the consequences of such an action would reap on him. What was happening to
him? He was starting to disappear, to be swallowed up in this never-ending hell
that was now his life. Oh God, did he ever need someone's help to pull him back
from the path he was now headed in. He needed someone to catch him when he fell
into the abyss...hell he needed Jack for without Jack O'Neill with him he was
losing himself and becoming more and more of what Osiris
wanted. He was forgetting who he truly was and transforming into something too
hideous to even consider. Jack was his salvation but Jack was gone. He might
never see Jack again and without Jack, without the man's strong steadfast
support and comfort he was doomed.
Daniel
finished his bath hesitantly rising out of the water to grab up the towel lying
off to the side. His mind wouldn't allow him to forget the events of the
previous evening. He had allowed the Goa'uld lord,
his captor, to use him. He had allowed it and he had responded. He willingly
betrayed his lover to satisfy a serpent. Oh God, he could never go back now. Never. How could he ever face Jack again knowing that
he...that he...knowing what he had done? But he had no choice! NO CHOICE! If he
would've refused, God if he would've refused...all those people were dead now,
a planet was no more...destroyed because...because Osiris
wanted more from him than just his company. He wanted so much more and he had
no choice but to sacrifice him self, sacrifice his body to appease the system
lord and to keep him from doing it again. Osiris
would never quit. He would always hold that threat and the threats on Earth, on
Jack over him for the rest of his life. Those threats would hold him here and
make him more a prisoner of Osiris then the collar,
leash and chastity belt ever could...
Osiris smiled as he watched his servant enter their bedchamber. He could
smell the soft aroma of soap and shampoo clinging to Daniel's smooth, supple
skin. He watched his servant as the man approached his desk. He was rather
certain that Daniel didn't yet realize he was in the room. Osiris
smiled as he continued to silently observe the man. He remembered just how
enjoyable the previous evening was and wanted to take things even further. He
continued to watch Daniel feeling his need and his desire for the man increase.
Daniel
sat down at his desk feeling his rage continue to build. Why did he feel so
angry at the moment? Why? It was unlike him to feel such intense rage and
anger. As he glanced up at himself in the mirror his rage only increased. He
noticed the tight clenching of his jaw, the stony look that even now was
spreading across his face and the fury making his eyes spark like blue fire.
Rage and anger were emotions he rarely allowed himself to experience for when
he did he was uncertain as to just what all he might be capable of. As he
continued to gaze at the bitter, outraged man in that mirror he became aware
that his palms ached. He focused on his hands realizing why...he was actually
clenching his hands so tightly together that he was ramming his fingernails
into his palms. The pain was a small irritant but instead of easing the tension
there he only tightened his fists more feeling the need to lash out at
something, at anything.
Why
the hell did Osiris have to use him, have to force
him to respond so willingly to him? Why had he allowed himself to get caught up
in that onslaught of arousal and desire? Why had he dared to allow himself to
need fulfillment from his captor? Why had he so willingly betrayed the one he
claimed to love with all his heart...Jack. Oh God,
he’d betrayed Jack...
He
jumped as hands suddenly gripped him about his upper shoulders. Without looking
he knew who was now touching him and he hated that being, that creature with
every fiber of his being. Without hesitating he snapped, "DON'T FUCKIN'
TOUCH ME! DON'T FUCKIN' TOUCH ME, DAMN IT!"
He
jerked so violently from that hold that he struck the desk causing it to shake
enough to set several things to overturn in response. He directed his attention
back to the serpent as those hands found him again. He jerked out of his seat
upturning his chair with the abruptness of the action turning to glare
sinisterly at the one who refused to back off and leave him alone. He continued
still in an outraged voice, "Keep your damned hands off of me! I don't
want to be touched! Leave me the hell alone!"
"Daniel..."
"NO!
LEAVE ME ALONE!"
Osiris had been startled upon hearing Daniel's angry words and as the man
jumped to his feet his concern only increased. Daniel was so angry right now.
As he took the time to study his servant he could see that deep down inside the
man was seething with anger. He was a bit confused as to where the sudden rage
originated. Osiris refused to back off as he
suggested, "Daniel come. Let us sit. We must discuss some things."
"NO!"
Osiris reached out to place his hands on Daniel's shoulders prepared to make
the suggestion again but when Daniel responded by violently shoving his arms
away Osiris could feel his own anger increase. He
spoke with barely controlled civility, "Daniel, if you will not do as I
tell you willingly then I will be forced to move you to where I desire you to
sit."
"Keep
your damned hands off of me!"
"Daniel,
this is foolishness. You have no reason to be angry..."
"No
reason? NO REASON! Why you son of a bitch!"
"DANIEL!
You are testing my patience. This course of action is unwise. You will sit
where I tell you and we will speak of what is bothering you."
"What's
bothering me? What's bothering me? Oh you actually give a shit about how I
feel? That's a damned joke, that's a laugh...don't patronize me!"
"I
do not patronize, my precious one..."
Daniel
lashed out at the serpent grabbing Osiris about the
upper arms prepared to shake him. Osiris focused cold
eyes on him as he spoke in an even menacing tone, "Tell me what you intend
to do, my precious one. Do not start a battle that you cannot win. I am much
stronger than you. I can easily take control of you. You do not want to anger
me for you will not like the result."
"Leave
me alone!"
Daniel
refused to yield his hold so without hesitation Osiris
countered by jerking free of Daniel's grasp, gripping him about the shoulders
and directing him to the bed forcing him to sit down on the mattress. Daniel's
anger only increased as the Goa'uld lord took control
of him so swiftly. He refused to accept defeat as he lashed out clawing Osiris across the face and grabbing for the serpent's neck
with the intent to kill.
Osiris growled and hissed as Daniel's nails raked across his cheek drawing
blood to the surface. When the man's fingers found and encircled his throat Osiris shoved him down on the bed intending to pin the man
in place. In one fell swoop he had Daniel's body pinned back first on the bed
his arms now above his head secured on either side of his body within the
painful hold. Daniel growled as he resorted to bucking and struggling against
his captor.
Osiris sighed heavily as he spoke evenly, "You should accept defeat my
dear Daniel, for the longer you struggle the more you will tire. I am much
stronger than you. To fight me is senseless."
"Get
off! GET OFF!"
"I
will not. You are in need of restraining for your anger is great..."
"FUCK
YOU!"
"Daniel,
it is very unwise for you to continue to anger your god. You will only bring
about more pain. Now cease your ridiculous attempts at evading me."
Daniel
was so outraged that he was now effectively pinned to the bed and Osiris had gained control so quickly. The damned son of a
bitch! All he wanted was for the snake to get off of him and leave him alone.
He lashed out again feeling a small victory as his foot impacted flesh and the
snake hissed as pain flared in his shin.
Osiris' response to that kick was to lie on top of him and force his wrists
firmly against the mattress. The Goa'uld's physical
strength effectively pinned him in place and as that lithe body pressed so
intimately against his own Daniel felt his anger dissipate to be replaced by
fear and panic. The Goa'uld lord was now pinning him
to the bed and was nearly naked. NO! As the realization that all the Goa'uld lord had to do was remove
a thin barrier of cloth in order to rape him filled his mind he renewed his
struggles fighting desperately to escape the creatures restrictive hold.
Osiris noticed the instant that Daniel's anger dissipated and as he focused
on his servant's handsome face he saw that strong emotion being replaced by
another more powerful emotion...fear, not just fear but also panic. Daniel was
panicking. Osiris became puzzled when he noticed the
newest emotion that triggered Daniel to resist yet again. Why was his servant
afraid? Why was he panicking? Sarah's voice came back to him as she answered,
'Because you have gained control over him...he is no longer thinking of harming
us now he only wants desperately to regain the control he knows he has lost.'
"I
do not understand, Sarah."
'He
fears that you will now take advantage of him. You have gained control and now
he fears that you will push him to service us again.'
"It
is his duty, Sarah..."
'He
is not yet ready to embark on such a journey again...it is too soon. You must
let him go.'
"What?
No."
Osiris again focused on Daniel noticing that the man was still struggling
against him. He soothed and quieted his voice as he softly crooned,
"Daniel, you must cease these attempts to resist your lord. You will grow
tired and exhaust yourself. I will not leave you go until you can properly calm
yourself. This behavior is unacceptable. You must relax and you must yield. I
will not release you until you yield to me."
"NEVER! I'D RATHER DIE!"
"Daniel,
I know that is not true. Please cease your struggles. I do not desire to harm
you. I do not like keeping you pinned beneath me, for I know that I am hurting
you. Please Daniel, you must stop. I do not wish to hurt you any longer."
"NO!"
He
fought harder feeling his panic continue to build within the longer Osiris remained on top of him. All he wanted was for the
system lord to get off of him. If Osiris would move
then he could calm but as long as the serpent maintained such a painful hold
and refused to get off of him he wouldn't be able to calm until his energy
dissipated.
Osiris was certain that Daniel wouldn't relax so he continued to keep a firm
hold on the man only becoming fearful when Daniel's breathing became shaky and
he started having difficulty drawing oxygen into his lungs. Osiris
spoke in a calm tone as he tried to calm Daniel before breathing became an impossible
task for the man. He said, "Daniel, Daniel you must listen to me. You must
calm yourself or you will not be able to breathe. You must relax. Daniel, I
will not harm you and I will not attack you. I know that you fear I will
assault you but I will not. You must calm down. Please Daniel, please calm
down."
Daniel
could feel his panic pushing him closer and closer to exhaustion. As his panic
held him completely within its grasp he suddenly became aware of another
problem. He couldn't breathe. Oh shit! He couldn't breathe! It hurt too much to
breathe. He struggled to desperately pull air into his lungs but no matter how
hard he tried he could feel himself gasping and gulping for air. Panic easily
stole one's breath and showed no mercy when it did so. He clenched his eyes
tightly shut immediately stilling against Osiris'
painful hold struggling to regain control of his erratic breathing but his
throat burned and throbbed making the effort so much harder than necessary. His
fear of being raped became an all out fear of dying. He needed to breathe, oh
God he needed to breathe! As he heard himself wheezing his fear only increased.
What if he couldn't regain control of his breathing? God, he would soon pass
out from oxygen deprivation. He needed to breathe. He could hear Osiris' voice drifting to him from so far away but no
matter how he tried to focus on those words, focus on the command in those
words he couldn't do it. He couldn't regain control and his mind flashed
briefly to his lover. He was certain that he was about to die as his
oxygen-starved lungs began to burn in response to the strain his panic had
placed on his circulatory system.
Daniel
started to feel light headed. His ears began their incessant ringing as his
head felt as if it were stuffed with cotton. He tried to think but that seemed
almost as impossible as breathing did at the moment. His throat ached fiercely
and his lungs burned as if they were on fire. His chest felt as if it were
gripped in a vice that was slowly squeezing the air out of him. God, he felt
like he was having a damned allergy attack, a major allergy attack but there
were no flowers to set his sinuses off. He cried out not certain if he spoke
aloud or in his mind for help. He couldn't regain control, oh God, oh shit he
couldn't breathe and he could feel the darkness starting to close in around
him. He had to breathe; he had to! Again he cried out for help. He felt his
grasp on the conscious world slipping before hearing a faint voice telling him
to fight, telling him he was having a panic attack and not to give in to the
panic that now gripped him so effectively in its clutches. The voice was calm
warm, familiar...the voice belonged to Jack and as Jack's voice echoed to him
as if in a dream telling him ordering him to survive to fight Daniel suddenly
felt that vice release and inhaled deeply of the oxygenized air that he had
been deprived of for so long. As he inhaled he started to cough violently as
his lungs protested the sudden opening of his airways. He could feel dampness
on his cheeks and was certain that tears of pain had leaked out of his eyes
while he fought to breathe freely again.
Daniel
could hear Jack's voice again speaking to him telling him to calm down and not
inhale so rapidly and so deeply. He listened to that voice feeling his
breathing beginning to ease and return to normal. As he succeeded in regaining
a normal breathing pattern he could feel a pounding headache but pushed passed
that headache long enough to whisper a quiet, "Thanks Jack," before
exhaustion made him still.
Osiris swallowed hard as his fear started to slowly disappear as Daniel
succeeded in regaining his breathing. He carefully released his hold on the
man's wrists frowning when his eyes scanned across the deep red marks now
marring Daniel's perfect, flawless skin...he would have nasty bruises there for
certain. Osiris was not proud of those marks he had
to inflict on his servant to gain control over him. Yes Daniel had clawed his
face and kicked him, but he would never deliberately inflict such harm on his
servant. He would never willingly strike Daniel for any reason. He was ashamed
to see those marks that told of what he had to do to gain control over Daniel
when his anger took hold. He shook his head sadly before pressing a hand to
Daniel's face and quietly hushing him.
Daniel
could feel the soft touch against his cheek and allowed him self to draw
comfort from it. He kept his eyes closed as he continued to focus on breathing
normally. He had come so close, so close. He hoped that he never became that
panicked ever again. Jack had labeled the reaction a panic attack. What a
proper name for an extremely scary response. He hoped never to have the
privilege of experiencing that again. As he began to relax he listened to the
voice of the one still atop him, "Daniel, are you all right? Please speak
to me, my precious one. Please tell me if you are all right."
Daniel
only nodded hearing a sigh of relief escape from between Osiris'
lips. He still kept his eyes closed feeling the pounding headache starting to
abate some. Thank God for small favors! He heard Osiris
again speaking to him and listened finding that speaking at the moment just was
not going to happen, "Daniel I am sorry that I am partially responsible
for creating your panic. I did not mean to harm you or upset you. I was merely
attempting to restrain you until you regained your control. I do not draw any
great pleasure from having to harm you so. If I had known that you would panic
I would have never attempted such a restraint."
Daniel
merely nodded as he heard only about half of the words Osiris
was speaking. He hurt everywhere. He felt as if he fought with a steer...and
lost. He was certain part of the reason his body ached so much was due to
having been deprived of oxygen and fighting so hard to regain his ability to
breathe once again. All he wanted to do was curl up and sleep for about fifteen
hours. He jumped as Osiris pressed a light kiss to
his lips then to his cheek feeling his panic threatening to surface again.
Sarah
noticed the sudden tenseness in Daniel's body upon the soft kiss and felt it
necessary to warn Osiris to be careful. She
interrupted, 'My Lord, please be careful with how you proceed. He is still
recovering from his panic you do not want to be responsible for triggering
another such attack within him.'
"What
harm is there in a simple kiss, Sarah?"
'There
is no harm unless you cannot stop there. He is not ready to make love with us
again, My Lord. He needs some time...you must go slowly with Daniel, for he is
a very sensitive person. If you push him too much you will risk losing him.
These things cannot be rushed. You must proceed with caution. In time Daniel
will respond to us willingly and instantly but for now you must slow down for him.
This is all new to him and in sleeping with us he probably feels as if he is
betraying Jack. Betrayal is a very painful thing for Daniel to deal with so
please be careful, My Lord, please.'
Osiris nodded then proceeded to slowly trace Daniel's face with his finger
hushing the man and telling him not to be afraid that all he wanted to do was
touch him. Daniel was tense beneath him. Osiris could
feel the straining in the young man's muscles and could see the stubborn set of
his jaw. Daniel was fighting his panic. Osiris
listened closely to the man's breathing for any indications that his servant
was losing his control again. As he slowly traced the fine lines of Daniel's
jaw and cheeks he noticed that the man remained still. His breathing didn't
grow more haggard and his body didn't relax under him but he wasn't panicking. Osiris spoke softly, "In time you will allow me to
make love to you whenever I desire it, my precious one. You will learn to trust
my hands upon your body and my guidance in our lovemaking. I do not wish your sexual trainings to place
you in a mindset where you feel that you are just doing a duty. I want you to
draw and derive as much pleasure from our mating as I. This will take practice
on both our parts for I must learn your body as intimately as you will be
required to learn mine. I want you to learn what can turn me on and arouse me.
You will be educated in our bedchamber on just where to touch me and how to
handle me so that you please me. I will study you to determine what it is that
turns you on my precious. Sarah has given me some ideas of just where to
stimulate you to excite you, my precious slave."
Osiris then proceeded to lean down by Daniel's left ear, slip his tongue out
from between his lips and draw it slowly across the man's ear lobe. Despite his
efforts not to respond to the stimulation Daniel found himself hissing and
moaning in pleasure. As Osiris drew his earlobe into
Sarah's warm, moist mouth Daniel found his body betraying him by thrusting
against the one now stimulating him. He clenched his eyes shut as another moan
of pleasure slipped from between his slightly parted lips as Osiris proceeded to nibble on the earlobe. Daniel could
feel the chills of desire slithering up through his body urging his manhood to
harden instantly. As a hand slid down to cup his groin intimately Daniel cried
out thrusting his hips upwards and offering the Goa'uld
lord more of his groin for stimulation.
Osiris smiled as he released the grip he held on Daniel's earlobe and
whispered softly, "Hmm, that is it my precious one just let your self go.
Give your self to me. Surrender to me. Draw your
pleasure from your master, slave."
Daniel
whimpered as the hand on his groin started to rub him. He could feel the hand
moving back and forth across his exposed genitals creating friction and
building heat in his sex organs that he couldn't ignore. Daniel thought of Jack
and instantly stilled realizing what he was doing. He choked out, "No...no, please...no..."
Osiris didn't hear him he instead leaned down and dragged that delectable
earlobe into his mouth where he began to nibble once more. Daniel shakily
moaned as the heat in his groin only increased and pure pleasure started to
pound through out his body as nerves were sensitized. He pushed passed the haze
of pleasure that threatened to toss all good intentions out of the window,
especially when the hand on his groin wrapped around his erection and started
to slowly pump him. He groaned as he writhed and bucked beneath the onslaught
but somehow managed to slip the word passed his lips again as his arousal
continued to grow, "NO..."
Osiris still didn't hear his servant's spoken words and Daniel became
desperate to be heard. He tried to suppress his moans of pleasure, desire and
need as he struggled to make his refusal heard. Again he tried harder,
"No...no please...please don't do this to me
again...no please...please My Lord. It's too soon I...I can't...can't
do this...no...please..."
Sarah
heard his pleas and knew that she had to stop Osiris
before he caused more damage within his servant. Daniel would respond willingly
to them in time but now...now it was too soon. His betrayal of his lover was
too new in his mind and all he would feel if this progressed to intercourse was
that betrayal consuming him and killing him. She spoke loudly, 'My Lord, you
must stop. You must not continue with the actions you are taking.'
"He
is so strong and virile...see how he responds to us, Sarah..."
'My
Lord are you listening to me? Are you listening to
him? He can't do this. It's too soon. My Lord we have time but you must not
push him, for if you do you risk losing him and his soul. You must move slowly.
Please listen to his words. He is not ready.'
"Sarah
you worry too much..."
'NO
My Lord...are you listening to him? You can't do this
or you will destroy him. It's too soon...the betrayal he feels towards his
lover is too fresh in his mind. If you make love to him this evening you may
risk damning his very soul. My Lord you must listen to your servant as well. It
is his duty to listen to you, to do as you command of him but it is also your
duty to listen to him and to make certain that you are not placing him in
danger of any sort...'
"Sarah..."
'PLEASE
LISTEN TO HIM!'
Osiris released his hold on Daniel's earlobe and listened to Daniel hearing
the man's moans of pleasure and feeling him thrust upwards as his body begged
to be satisfied but moans weren't the only thing to escape the man's luscious
lips for there were words. Words he had to listen to or he would risk his
servant's ultimate destruction. He swallowed hard as his servant continued to
speak in a husky voice, "No...please...no My
Lord. Don't do this to me...no...I can't...can't... I'll
betray Jack...no...don't make me do this...no...please, not...too soon...please..."
As Osiris focused on Daniel's handsome face he was certain
that Daniel Jackson wasn't even aware that he was voicing his pleas aloud. He
decided it would be best not to draw attention to that fact and allow Daniel to
feel that he wasn't outwardly begging and pleading for his master to stop
pleasing him. Daniel would feel great shame in knowing that he had verbalized
his pleas. He didn't like to show weaknesses of any kind as Sarah helped him to
learn.
Osiris watched the man as he gently eased his hand off of Daniel's genitals
and raised it to Daniel's face. He gently cupped Daniel's face between his
hands softly crooning, "Daniel, sleep...go to
sleep, my precious one. You must be tired. Sleep for me, sleep for your lord,
Daniel."
Daniel
opened his eyes looking at the Goa'uld lord in
confusion. He was thoroughly aroused and knew deep down in his heart that he
didn't want to give himself to Osiris again. He knew
that he would have no choice in the matter for the serpent lord would destroy
another planet upon his refusal but he also knew that he couldn't do this. Not
now...feelings of his betrayal of his lover were too fresh in his mind and he
just couldn't handle betraying the man again so soon. He was confused as to why
Osiris was now urging him to sleep. His brow creased
in confusion as he tried to concentrate on Osiris and
the words the Goa'uld lord was speaking to him. He
watched as Osiris leaned forward to press the
lightest of kisses to his forehead before lowering to his left side and tugging
him against his own body. Daniel continued to focus on Osiris
not sure of what he was doing and too confused to realize that Osiris had ceased pleasuring him. He managed a whispered,
"My Lord..."
Before
Osiris was hushing him and urging him to sleep once
more. Daniel watched Osiris realizing that he had
ceased to touch him other than to hold him closely. He couldn't comprehend why Osiris would stop instead of demanding his services again.
He stared at Osiris for the longest time wanting to
speak with him but uncertain as to what to say. It wasn't long before his
eyelids grew heavy and sleep draped over him like a silky veil cocooning him in
its warm, comforting embrace.
Osiris smiled as he watched Daniel attempting to resist his body's need for
rest. He noticed the instant that Daniel's eyelids began to droop and tried to
hold still so as not to disturb his servant's journey into rest. As Daniel's
soft dainty eyelashes settled to caress his upper cheeks Osiris'
smile broadened further for shortly after those beautiful eyes closed Daniel's
breathing smoothed out and sleep gripped him in its tender hold. He lay there
for several long minutes admiring the man as he slept so peacefully beside him.
Daniel was beautiful in rest as well as when awake. His features were smooth
and he was calmer now, more relaxed. In sleep Daniel was always more relaxed
than when awake. He reached out to gently brush
several wayward stands of golden hair off of Daniel's brow smiling as the man
quietly moaned, shifted slightly then settled on the mattress yet again. Osiris spoke much softer than previously, "Sleep, my
precious Daniel. Tomorrow we shall talk but tonight, tonight you shall dream,
dream for me, my love...dream."
Osiris soon found that he could no longer resist his need for rest either and
as he drifted asleep he heard Sarah's voice thanking him then telling him
goodnight. He smiled as he drifted away to join his servant in the land of
dreams.
Sarah
remained awake several more minutes gently running a hand back through Daniel's
soft lengthy hair as she whispered, "I won't allow him to destroy you,
Daniel. You must surrender yourself to our lord but I will make certain that he
does not push you beyond your limits by making love to you too soon. I will
make sure that he knows when he must give you time and when he must take his
time with you. I won't let his intense desire for you make him push you further
than he intends. I promise you, love. I promise." She then pressed a
tender kiss to Daniel's temple and curled up beside him before sleep also laid
claim to her.
* * * * * * * *
Two
Nights Later...
Daniel
prepared to enter the bedchamber feeling nervous and anxious knowing that Osiris would soon demand he perform for him again. He
prayed that Osiris would be tired of him but knew
otherwise. Osiris hadn't touched him in two days
other than to run his fingers through his hair, cup
his face in his hands or brush his lips lightly across his own. He knew, he could see, that Osiris
wanted him and knew that it wouldn't be long before he would again demand his
servant pleasure him in the bedroom.
He
closed his eyes trying to calm himself before slipping quietly into the room.
For the past two nights he has been bathing later and entering the room long
after his lord should be asleep. He was lucky so far and hopefully tonight that
luck would continue to hold out, but as he entered their bedchamber he felt his
hope plummeting and his fear and dread build because there standing before him
was Osiris and his lord's desire for him was very
obvious. Oh God no. He stopped prepared to flee the room when Osiris' gravely voice called to him softly commanding,
"Come Daniel."
He
knew he had no choice but to do as commanded so he slowly approached Osiris feeling every nerve rise on end and his heart begin
its desperate slamming in his chest as his uneasiness only increased. He paused
before Osiris bowing and down casting his eyes in a
proper show of respect before softly inquiring, "Yes My Lord?"
"I
wish for you to serve me this night, my precious one."
Daniel
swallowed hard as he felt apprehension seize him. He glanced nervously up at
the Goa'uld lord quickly down casting his eyes when Osiris made direct eye contact. He knew that the request
would soon be made and he knew that he had no other choice but to serve so he
forced the words passed his lips wrapping his arms around his chest in a
self-protective gesture as he inquired, "How may I serve you, My
Lord?"
Osiris smiled as he gently cupped Daniel's face between his hands answering,
"Ah yes, that is what I wish to hear you say to me without hesitation,
without shame and without reserve. You are my personal attendant, Daniel. You
are my favored, therefore, you should not feel shame or guilt when doing as
your lord requests or asking how you may best serve
me."
Daniel
refused to lift his gaze above the floor gripping his arms tighter around
himself as he tried valiantly to shove his extreme fear and overpowering
anxiety deep down inside. He prepared to speak choosing instead to nervously
suck in his bottom lip and nod his head slightly to show he understood.
Osiris shook his head noticing that his servant was extremely anxious and
shy. He would have to move slowly with this one for if he moved too quickly
there was no telling how his favored would react. He reached up wrapping his
hand firmly around Daniel's upper right arm and gently tugged him saying,
"Come let us sit on the bed and relax. Come. Sit beside me, my precious
Daniel."
Daniel
forced himself to comply feeling as if he were sealing
his fate as he placed one foot in front of the other heading in the direction
of the bed. He still couldn't bring himself to look at his lord or at the bed
he was being led to. He knew what Osiris expected
from him but wasn't sure if he'd even be able to do as expected. As Osiris urged him to sit on the bed he closed his eyes
tightly shut and drew in a shaky breath working on calming his nerves and
forcing his limbs to comply with Osiris' demands. As
he slowly sunk onto the mattress he remembered about Alandria
being destroyed before him only a few short days ago and knew that despite how
he truly felt about this whole sexual submission he would have to try to
perform adequately for the phoenix lord.
Osiris watched his servant as the man sat down beside him. He smiled warmly
as he softly urged, "Now I wish for you to lie on your back. Come do as
you have been commanded. Lie down on your back and stretch yourself out across
the mattress."
He
wanted to say no. He wanted to outright refuse to comply with that demand but
knew that the risks were just too high. He had to do as he was being ordered or
he would have to watch another world...God no. He couldn't handle that again.
Offering his body to the Goa'uld lord for his
pleasure was a very small sacrifice to make if it meant saving the lives of
thousands of others who were like those innocent inhabitants of Alandria. He could do this. He would do this. He had to do
this. He nodded his head slightly before shifting to the center of the bed. He
slowly lay down closing his eyes as his head pressed into the soft mound of
pillows at the top end of the bed. Presently he was still wearing his robe but
he knew that Osiris would make short work of
relieving him of the only garment that blocked his nakedness from his lord.
Osiris continued to watch Daniel as he slowly complied with his demands. He
waited until Daniel was reclined on the bed in a comfortable position before
shifting onto the bed. He slowly straddled Daniel's body positioning himself on
his knees above the man. After he settled himself where he desired he focused
on Daniel once again. He leaned forward placing his right hand against Daniel's
left cheek as he softly spoke, "Relax, my precious one. I would like you
to draw as much pleasure from our coupling as I will. You must calm yourself
and relax. You will service me this night. I will not accept no for an answer.
I have waited much too long to have you in my bed as more than just a
companion. I wish to join with you, Daniel Jackson. I wish to know you as
intimately as Sarah does. I want to feel our joining and become lost in the
union. I want to draw great pleasure from you and to offer you pleasure in
return. I want to learn all of your secrets, Daniel. I want to know everything
about you."
Daniel
swallowed hard feeling his panic and anxiousness start anew. He knew what was
expected of him yet he still hesitated. He quickly realized that if he didn't
somehow separate himself from this situation that he just might scream and
panic. He drew in a deep calming breath as he forced himself to focus his
attention elsewhere. He opened his mind to the other sensations his nerve
endings were being treated to. He could feel the soft, firm mattress beneath
his back and the fluffy pillows that held his head elevated off of the
mattress. He could feel the silky fabric of his robe where it lay against his
skin concealing his nakedness beneath a paper-thin shield. As he focused more
inwardly his attention was placed on the heaviness of Sarah perched above him.
She wasn't excessively heavy but he knew, could tell,
that she was there. He opened his eyes as a dainty hand pressed against his
left cheek gasping as he noticed that Osiris was now
leaning forward, draping his nearly naked body across him and casting a
hunger-laden gaze his way. As Osiris carefully
dragged his fingernails down over his body to settle on his chest Daniel could
hear his heart pounding in his ears. He gasped again as Osiris
began to slowly ease the robe he wore open while softly continuing, "Relax
and allow me to look at you, my precious one."
Daniel
couldn't move or speak as Osiris continued to push
the robe off of his body revealing his physique inch by pain staking inch. This
was pure hell lying here and trying to remain perfectly still as your captor
took his time stripping you naked in preparation for using your body for his
pleasure. God he hated this. He closed his eyes as Osiris
pushed his robe off further and again leaned forward pressing a gentle kiss to
his lips. He inhaled shakily, stiffening upon feeling those familiar lips
pressing against his own. Instantly heat sparked within him beginning to
smolder and build for at one time he had found this woman beautiful and very
desirable. At one time he had enjoyed making love to this beautiful woman
immensely but that was a long time ago...that was before she became possessed
by an evil creature whose only goal, only interest in
him, was to control him completely.
He
cursed his body as it instantly began to respond to her. He could feel blood
rushing to his midsection encouraging his organ to swell to an unbelievable
size. He shifted as he became aware that he was now hard and the head of his
erection was pressing against her inner thigh. Surely she knew that he was
excited. How could she not feel his hard shaft poking into her thigh
unashamedly? He blushed maddeningly when Osiris cast
him a knowing glance. Again those hands worked on slipping the robe off of him
and exposing him fully to the air. He had to force himself to remain still as Osiris continued to strip him naked. He felt an incredible
urge swarm through him to shove the Goa'uld lord off
of him but knew to do so would anger his captor immensely so he settled for
balling his hands into fists forcing himself to remain
complacent.
Osiris smirked as he felt Daniel's responses to his kiss. The man was indeed
disturbed by his lord. Perhaps making love to this man would prove much easier
than he had first assumed. Perhaps he could raise the ante a bit. He shook his
head as Sarah's voice echoed through his mind, 'No, you can't rush this with
him, My Lord. Remember how he reacted to you before. You must move slowly.'
'Look
at him, little one, is he not the most beautiful creature you have ever before
laid eyes upon?'
Sarah
could do nothing but answer the question truthfully, 'Yes he is.'
'He's
ours, little one, and tonight he will become ours forever.'
'My
Lord...'
Osiris was no longer listening to her as he cast a predatory gaze across
Daniel's beautiful nakedness. Yes the man was very handsome, indeed. He would
draw much pleasure from taming this wild creature. He smiled in satisfaction
when Daniel lay naked before him. He leaned forward again pressing his lips to
Daniel's supple ones. He moaned as he could taste Daniel's essence on his lips
but he could tell, could sense, that Daniel was not surrendering his passion as
he should be. He broke the kiss as he whispered in Daniel's right ear,
"You are not yet passionate enough, my precious."
Daniel
gasped and turned his head away from Osiris clenching
his eyes shut as those words filled his mind and he recalled the threat...if he
could not surrender his passion and desire a planet would be destroyed. He had
to surrender or Osiris would make good on that
promise. He just couldn't seem to drum up that unbidden passion deep within
himself. He was hard and he could feel heat spiraling in his belly but that was
all, for every time he closed his eyes he saw only one man and felt his
betrayal of that one man go so deep that it nearly destroyed him.
Jack...Jack...by surrendering to Osiris he would be
openly betraying Jack yet again. Could he do that and live with himself
afterwards? Which was worse losing Jack after willingly betraying him or losing
an entire planet of beings because he refused to yield? Oh God, he was in a
Catch 22 and he hated being pinned. He could feel Osiris'
warm breath bathing his ear, feel those hands gently rubbing across his chest,
feel that body perched above him and hear the excitement that his captor was
drawing from being this close to him. He could also feel a soft breeze blowing
gently across his nakedness reminding him of just how vulnerable he now was,
reminding him that Osiris was demanding payment for
staving his trigger finger. How could he surrender himself to this being and
live with the experience afterwards? Oh God, could he do that? Could he live
with this choice if he were to make it? He was trapped. He had no alternative;
God he needed to escape. He needed to get away but he couldn't move. He had to
do this or he would be forced to watch the destruction of another planet and
like Alandria the pain of knowing he was responsible
for that ultimate destruction would make him crumble and die inside. Shit he
had to do this for he knew that he couldn't live with another planet's
destruction on his mind, haunting his dreams and destroying what remained of
his fragile soul.
Sarah
noticed Daniel's instant withdrawal and knew that she had to bring it to Osiris' attention. He was already considering taking Daniel
right now without hesitation and she knew that if he were to jump into this
without giving Daniel the time to adjust and to accept what was being done to
him, what was being demanded of him Osiris would
unwittingly destroy the one man he loved above all others. She drew Osiris' attention as she said, 'My Lord, you must slow
down. You are trying to rush Daniel too much. He is very sensitive and is
probably focusing on his betrayal and not wanting to commit. He has a strong
sense of honor and of loyalty. He cannot handle being betrayed and to know that
he is willingly betraying another has the potential to destroy him. You must
not force him into obedience. You must take your time with him and be patient.
Allow me to take over momentarily, My Lord.'
Osiris could see the withdrawal occurring in his favored and sighed sadly as
he yielded to Sarah. He said, 'I want to please him and have him please me in
return. I know that he is passionate yet he keeps his passion locked up.'
Sarah
smiled as she continued, 'Pay attention to what I am about to show you, My
Lord. He is a flesh and blood man whose body willingly responds to our touch.
His body wants us and needs us, his body even now begs for us to stroke it and
pleasure it. It is his mind that refuses to yield to us...his mind and his
spirit. He knows that he must perform for us or another planet will fall to
ruin. He is waging a war inside realizing that he has no other alternative but
to offer himself freely to us. What we must do is encourage him to take that
little step. We must fuel his desire and need. We must make him hunger for us
and ache for us.'
'And
how do we accomplish such a task when he is obviously unwilling to surrender?'
'Daniel
and I were lovers for a long time. You know this. We took the time to learn
each other and study each other. I know what can turn this man on. I know where
his erogenous zones are and I know how to push him beyond his endurance. I know
how to push him to the point where he will beg to be satiated and to be brought
to fulfillment. You must learn his body as well as you want
him to learn ours. With Daniel you must think of seduction first and
foremost...'
'Seduction?'
'Yes.
Daniel likes to take things slowly. He is a very considerate lover. He is very focused and very eager to please. He wants his partner
to draw as much pleasure from lovemaking as he, him self is drawing. He is
tender, patient, slow...he takes his time...to rush him is to miss the best
part of him for he can fulfill one so completely that you get lost in him. He
studies his partner and learns everything there is to know about their body. In
Daniel's arms I used to feel like a priceless treasure for he always was so
sensual and so intense. He has many secrets that I have learned. For him
excitement begins with the first touch of skin against skin. He loves the feel
of his lover's warm, silky skin burning into his own. He is a very passionate
one but you must first now how to bring him alive to reap the rewards he has to
offer.'
'I
should like to learn these secrets very much, little one.'
'Relax
and allow me to show you what I know.'
Osiris nodded as he prepared to watch Sarah very closely to learn how to
excite his favored and draw that hidden pleasure out from deep within him.
Daniel
kept his eyes clenched tightly shut trying to block out the feel of Osiris against him. He had to surrender. He had no choice
but even knowing he had to serve helped little to get him to respond. He just
couldn't open himself up to the Goa'uld lord. He
couldn't force that passion to the forefront. He couldn't allow himself to feel
anything at the moment. All he wanted to do was shove the snake off of him,
curl up and scream. He wanted to scream aloud as he now was inside his mind.
Screaming to get out, screaming to get away, screaming for mercy and screaming
for his lover's forgiveness. He gasped as those hands moved towards his
nipples. He could feel Osiris moving above him and
wondered what was happening. As Osiris lowered onto
him pressing Sarah's creamy, soft breasts against his chest he could feel his
breath hitch in his throat. He groaned as Sarah's warm breasts rubbed softly
across his chest sending every nerve on end as her flesh pressed so intimately
against his own. Oh God, oh God he was starting to lose it. He groaned as she
leaned down by his left ear and gently blew into it. He could feel the goose bumps
rising across his skin as that simple act increased his heart rate just a tad.
As her warm, moist tongue pressed into his ear he moaned louder automatically
thrusting his hips up against her sweet mound and gasping as he could feel the
thatch of curls that were nestled so perfectly between her thighs. Aw shit, he
was losing it. Her simple actions successfully triggered a response in him and
he could feel his hunger and his need for her begin to arise. Sarah was
probably now in charge for she knew, oh how she knew, what could get him so hot
and so horny. She knew how to make him scream and how to make him respond. She
knew him intimately for she’d had plenty of time to study his responses and
learn his body so completely. He quickly realized that the knowledge of Sarah
most likely now being in control effectively triggered his desire and his need
for her.
Sarah
smiled as she began to feel Daniel's instant responses to her. She spoke to Osiris, 'See how he is now becoming alive? He will soon
plead for us to service him and he will beg to service us. You must always
remember to move slowly with him, especially in the beginning. He will openly
accept aggressive sex but first, first you must train him. You must view your
sexual relations with him as training in the beginning. He needs to be taught
how to please us and how to satisfy us. He already knows how to excite me and
how to satisfy me but you must teach him how to also satisfy you for I am no
longer alone in this body and things that turn me on, that excite me may not
necessarily excite you. Daniel knows what he must do to please me but he has no
knowledge of how he must please his lord. You must train him and show him what
he must do to give you pleasure and satisfy you.'
'I
understand what you are saying, little one. Show me how you please him.'
Sarah
smiled broader as she continued, 'He has many erogenous zones. There are many
places on his body that can quickly stir him up. He derives much pleasure from
one suckling his earlobes. You heard how he responded to me when I blew in his
ear. If you suckle his lobe you will trigger a strong response within him.
Other erogenous zones on him consist of his neck...he loves to have his neck
nipped and licked. He loves the feel of fingers as they run through his hair
from the back of his neck up over. He will shudder when you do this for it
sends pleasurable chills up across his spine. Of course every man is very
sensitive around his cock and balls. Just a gentle stroke is bound to draw a
moan of joy from between his luscious lips...another guaranteed hot spot is his
nipples...’
'Guaranteed
hot spot?'
'Yes...'
'You
have most interesting metaphors in your language Sarah.'
'In
time you will learn just what excites him. You must remember that you are
educating him at the same time that he is educating you. You must listen
closely to how he responds. Watch his responses and his reactions to the things
you do. Study him as you would study your war plans. He will reveal to you what
he desires and what he does not. You can learn much from Daniel if you learn to
read his body language for he is most expressive with it. He will not verbally
tell you what he wants, what he needs or what he desires you must learn to read
his needs in his actions and in his reactions. He is secretive by nature but
one can learn much about him simply by studying him...in bed and out of bed.
You must remember this for it will always be as such.'
'I
understand.'
'You
must also learn to praise him often, especially while he services you in the
bedroom. He needs to be assured that he is pleasing you. He needs to know that
he is performing to your standards for if he has no knowledge of how well he is
doing he will always be hindered by his fear that you will destroy a planet
because you are not satisfied so you must learn to praise him often and to
assure him with words, strokes, looks and gestures that you are happy with his
performance. You also must never threaten him with the destruction of a planet
when in the bedchamber for you could force him to become so focused on what
might happen that he will not be able to perform adequately for you. Daniel's
mind is always active. He never stops thinking. His mind will present him with
a situation and with a million ways that situation can go wrong or right. His
mind never stops processing. He processes everything and he thinks through
everything. He has a brilliant mind that never rests. Because of this he can
sometimes become very easily distracted so you must learn to accept this about
him and learn how to maintain his complete attention at times you wish to have
it. Don't expect him to give you all of his attention for his mind is much,
much too active for him to remain focused always.'
'You
know much of Daniel. I should like to learn all that you know about him.'
'You
have access to that knowledge already, My Lord. I want you to learn about him
for it is so easy to harm him, so easy to hurt him. He has a vulnerability that
many don't see. They don't see it because he is so good at concealing it. He is
a very special person who is very complex. However, you must remember that it
has been five or six years since I...since we were so close. He disappeared and
produced no papers, no research...he was virtually out of action for six years.
He has changed through those years so some of my knowledge will not be
accurate. I don't know what has shaped him in those passed few years. I don't
know how much he has changed. I can see changes in him, My Lord, changes that
weren't there six years ago but I know I don't see them all. I only see those
few he wants me to see.'
'I
understand...please continue to show me how to please him.'
Sarah
again placed all her attention on the man lying beneath her. She leaned up and
pressed her lips to his drawing another moan from him as she did so and this
time, unlike the last two times Daniel responded to her kiss. She smiled as she
sent Osiris another comment, 'Watch and learn, My
Lord.'
She
then broke off the kiss slowly pressing butterfly light kisses from the corner
of Daniel's mouth back towards his ear. Once near his ear she again blew across
it and leaned forward drawing his earlobe into her mouth. Daniel hissed as that
warm, moist mouth clamped over his earlobe and started to suckle. He could feel
Sarah's hands continuing to roam over his chest slowly as if she were trying to
memorize his body all over again. As she released her hold on his ear she
lowered to nuzzle her head against his neck. As she pressed a gentle kiss to
the side of his neck before gently nipping him Daniel moaned and bucked
thrusting his hips up against her womanhood begging and pleading for her to
continue to please him. He instantly wrapped his arms around her body pulling
her tighter against him wanting her to please him desperately. Sarah smiled as
she felt those arms wrap around her and knew that she now had Daniel's
undivided attention. She shifted her weight so that her womanly center pressed
firmly against his manhood. Daniel moaned as he shifted spreading his legs
slightly to give her access. She focused on his face looking deeply into his
vivid blue eyes searching for the man she knew lay hidden inside himself and saw a spark of desire tinge his eyes making them
stormy. She then slowly eased herself down onto his shaft moaning as he thrust
his hips upwards providing her with easier entry. When she became fully impaled
on his hard cock Daniel tossed his head back into the mound of pillows moaning
from deep within. He tightened his hold on her body as she leaned down to again
gently nuzzle his neck. She smiled preparing to ride him to the heights of
ecstasy and beyond.
Daniel
cursed himself as he willingly gave himself over to the woman who now ruled
him. Another possessed her but presently she was in control. She was forcing
him to comply with Osiris' will. She was using her
prior knowledge of their time together against him to draw forth that desire, that hunger and that yearning that he tried
desperately to deny. He never hated her more than he did right now. He hated
her yet he needed her, ached for her, longed for her.
He despised her for using his body's natural responses against him to make him
respond openly to his lord. He despised her but even as those feelings filled
him he found himself thrusting upwards encouraging her to ride him to
fulfillment as his treacherous body begged for her. As she again nuzzled his
neck he felt his stomach muscles clench in response and felt the need deep
within to beg for her pleasure. He would be damned if he would beg for her to
satisfy him. He knew that was what she wanted but he would rather die than
surrender to her completely. He groaned as she squeezed his thighs gently
between her own while moving her pelvis back and forth. He arched into her,
thrusting upwards, panting with need as her vulva rubbed against his pubic bone
arousing him to no end. He knew that he was lost when she started that little
teasing of hers and he couldn't stop himself as he slid his hands down to her
ass cheeks cupping them firmly in his hands and gripping her to him.
As
Sarah began her slow thrusting she could feel her own desire increase,
especially when Daniel started meeting her thrusts. She focused on his handsome
face noticing his eyes were closed and his breathing had since increased. He
was extremely aroused and she knew that he was now surrendering his body to
her. She slowly increased her thrusting pace leaning down over him to tug one
of those precious nipples into her warm mouth. His response was instantaneous
as he growled in pleasure and longing as she started to lave her tongue
teasingly back and forth across that beautiful nub making his nipple pucker
under her ministrations. When his left nipple was successfully taut she turned
her focus to his right nipple drawing it into her mouth and suckling it to
hardness. She then resorted to blowing her warm breath across each of those
nipples drawing a half choked growl and scream from the man she was tormenting.
She grinned evilly as she slowed her movements down considerably then turned to
tightly contracting her vaginal muscles together around his hard cock. Daniel
lost it as he screamed out in immense pleasure and whimpered as she continued
to move ever so slowly above him and gripped his penis within her. She too
screamed in pleasure as she not only stimulated him further but herself as
well.
Daniel
tried to gain control of his flailing emotions aware that he was fast
approaching the precipice of climax and not wanting to surrender that part of
himself up to the Goa'uld lord but as Sarah focused
on arousing him further he could no longer fight and felt his body begin the
gradual climb to a powerful orgasm. He slid his hands up over her back tugging
her against him as he reached up to capture her lips in his own. As she started
to increase her thrusting pace again Daniel surrendered to desire. He started
to run his hands up and down across her back teasing her lips and prodding at
them, gently urging them to part and allow him entrance. She eventually yielded
allowing Daniel's tongue in where they fenced with one another for a time. He
started gasping as he could feel the stirrings within himself and could feel
her vaginal muscles beginning to contract. She was so close to orgasm. He
remembered how this felt. How it had felt to make love to this woman so many
years ago and he surrendered to a past that has been long since forgotten. He
broke the kiss clutching her desperately to him as he increased his own
thrusting pace shoving his engorged dick up into her tight vaginal canal urging
her, encouraging her to come for him.
Sarah
clung to Daniel sensing that he was so close to fulfillment and not wanting to
miss this moment. Daniel was incredibly beautiful when he climaxed so she made
sure to keep her eyes opened and focused intently on his face. As he bucked
against her, holding her so tight against him she could feel the explosion
beginning to surge through him and watched as Daniel screamed loudly as he
erupted pouring his seed deep within her body as he reached his apex. She could
feel her own orgasm approaching and arriving only mere moments after Daniel's
and screamed herself as she climaxed coating his penis liberally with her warm,
thick juices.
She
collapsed into his arms pressing her head against his chest listening to the
sound of his erratic heartbeat and heavy breathing. She had forgotten just how
damned good Daniel Jackson was in bed. She clung to him waiting until she
caught her breath before planting little kisses all across his chest. When he
finally calmed she focused on his handsome face and softly whispered,
"Thank you, Daniel."
Daniel
couldn't speak for he was too out of breath. He blocked out all his feelings of
betrayal not wanting to deal with those emotions just yet fearing that he would
break down into tears before the Goa'uld lord. Their
lovemaking was beautiful but...but she, he, it wasn't Jack O'Neill and Jack
O'Neill was the one man in all the world, in all the universe who held his
heart and his love so he listened to his heavy breathing and that of Sarah's.
He became aware that her head was now nestled in the center of his chest and
her soft blond hair was tickling his nipples where it lay draped across him
like a curtain. Though he wanted to deny it he could feel a stirring for the
woman begin anew.
Daniel
settled allowing himself to drift off to sleep in the Goa'uld
lord's arms pushing all thoughts of what he had done to the back of his mind.
He couldn't yet deal with the painful emotions he knew would surface as a
result of what transpired this evening.
Osiris could sense his host drifting asleep and smiled warmly as he said,
'Thank you Sarah, for showing me how to please him.'
'Hmm...you're welcome, M'Lord.'
'Rest
little one rest. You have had a most exhausting evening.'
She
chuckled softly before surrendering to a calming sleep. When Osiris was certain that Sarah was indeed asleep he turned
his focus towards his favored noting that he too was now asleep and that they
were both still interlocked in a very intimate embrace. Daniel was still buried
deep within his host and he still clung to her as he had during their
lovemaking. Osiris smiled enjoying the pleasure of
feeling the man buried so completely within him and holding him so close
against him. He hoped that someday, someday, Daniel would feel comfortable
enough with him to hold him like he now was holding Sarah. He reached up to
gently stroke Daniel's jaw as he whispered, "Yes someday you will come to
me as you have to Sarah and I will truly know how it feels to be one with
you. I am a patient man Daniel Jackson I
have forever to become familiar with you, my precious one. In time, in time,
you will learn to love me as I now love you...it will all come in time. You
will see, my precious one. You will see. Good night,
my sweet Daniel..."
He
then settled his head against Daniel's chest and was rapidly lolled to sleep by
the rhythmic beating of Daniel's heart.
* * * *
He
jerked awake a scream on the tip of his tongue. He could feel his body breaking
out into a cold sweat, hear his heart hammering in his
ears mixing with the sound of his heavy breathing. Oh God, oh God it was real,
too real. Even now no matter how hard he tried he couldn't block them out. He
couldn't silence the screams of thousands of innocent voices crying out against
the injustice done to them. He couldn't quiet the sounds of crying and
pleading. He couldn't stop seeing the scorn and anger on the faces of those
innocent people, thousands of innocent people calling out demanding retribution
for their deaths, demanding vengeance. It was his fault, his fault and no
others. If he had only done as Osiris demanded then Alandria would have been spared. If he had known what the
system lord had intended he would have found a way to warn the goddess Athena
to spare thousands of people from losing their lives so ruthlessly.
He
still couldn't understand, couldn't comprehend why Osiris
had agreed, had even spent time to bother with forging an alliance if his sole
intent was to destroy Athena's world anyway. Why had he agreed to an alliance
only to turn and savagely destroy her and her followers? Why?
He
shook his head feeling sadness threatening to swallow him whole for such a
great loss, such a tragic event. Osiris destroyed
that planet and didn't even care. All he cared about was that his servant would
now come to his bed for more than just rest. All he was concerned about was
receiving sexual gratification from his slave. He shuddered as chills flooded
him. All those people, all those innocent people killed, destroyed just because
Osiris wanted to bed his slave. Why? Why did they
have to die so tragically? Why did they have to die at all?
As
his mind provided the answer to that unspoken question Daniel felt even colder:
why? Because he knew that in destroying that planet he would attain his
servant's complete surrender. He knew that to destroy a planet then threaten to
destroy another if there was a failure to comply his servant would willingly
serve him in any way he demanded, sexual or otherwise. He knew his servant's
greatest weakness and like he had told Zeenan Osiris had found a way to play on that weakness and use it
to his own advantage.
He
tensed nearly bolting from the bed when a hand suddenly pressed to the side of
his face. He closed his eyes refusing to look at the one touching him and
swallowing hard as Osiris questioned, "Are you
all right my precious one?"
He
could only nod prompting Osiris to continue,
"What is wrong Daniel? What has disrupted your sleep so much? What has you
so upset and so anxious?"
"No...nothing."
“You
were dreaming. What was your dream about?"
"Nothing, My Lord, nothing. Go back to sleep. You must be tired."
"Daniel
you were pleading in your sleep. You were asking for forgiveness. Tell me what
has made you feel that you must beg to be forgiven?"
"Nothing, My Lord, nothing."
Osiris sighed heavily feeling the refusal to speak to him hurt more than he
expected. Daniel still would not confide in him. Daniel was still refusing to
speak with him about issues that were causing him great pain. If he would just
open up, just speak about what was troubling him then maybe he could help ease
his servant's mind but still Daniel remained distant refusing to reveal more
than was absolutely necessary to his lord. He could understand Daniel's need to
keep things to himself. Even Sarah had warned him that Daniel was a very
private person and would probably reveal little to him but still he had hoped
for Daniel to reveal something. He didn't know how to help his servant all he
knew was that Daniel was hurting and that Daniel was refusing to allow him the
chance to help ease his discomfort if even a little.
Sarah
sensing Osiris' sudden frustration and sadness
quickly tried to provide the explanation he was so desperately seeking, 'He has
shut you out. He will not speak to you of what has upset him.'
'Do
you know what he dreamed of?'
'Hmm
if I were to guess I would say Alandria.'
'Alandria? Why?'
'Because
you have made him responsible for the destruction of that world and the people
of that world... You told him that he was to blame for that world's destruction
and now he believes that he is guilty. Daniel respects life and would do
anything to help others. You in your attempts to gain his complete cooperation
have permanently damaged his soul.'
'Permanently? No.'
'My
Lord I did warn you that this would happen if you dared to use his compassion
against him as a weapon.'
'I
did no such thing...'
'Why
do you lie to yourself when you know that you did just that? You wanted him in
your bed, to serve you sexually and so you used his compassion against him. You
wielded it like a weapon not thinking of the repercussions of such an action.
Daniel is a very special person. He feels everything. He is also very good at
accepting the blame for things that are not his fault. He has always been like
that, My Lord. He is a master at causing himself great guilt.'
'So
is there anything that I can do to...to help him with this?'
'That
I do not know for as I have said before Daniel is very complex. He is also very
private. He will keep his feelings and emotions locked so deep within for he is
afraid to open up to anyone.'
'Why?'
'Because
he fears that once they see inside of him they will have power over him and
they will use it against him just as you have done.'
Osiris became very upset realizing that he might have done more harm than
good when using Alandria against his slave to gain
his compliance. He knew that it was wrong to use Daniel's compassion against
him but he also knew that if he hadn't then Daniel would have never come
willingly to him. He should apologize for what he had done but he didn't want
to lose the fiery, passionate man he opened up when he required that Daniel
serve him sexually.
* * * * * * * *
Doctor
Janet Fraiser glanced up as Colonel O'Neill entered
her office. They had some issues that needed to be discussed and she preferred
to do so in the privacy of her own office. When he entered she watched him
noticing that he looked all right on the outside but on the inside, on the
inside... She was looking at a man who was fast becoming lost in the endless
abyss of despair, frustration, anger and depression. She knew just who put
those feelings in this man's eyes though it would kill him to realize how much
his absence was destroying the love of his life. If Daniel were to be here now
and were to see Jack now...it would kill him. Something had to be done about
the Colonel's less than positive attitude as of late and that is why she was
having this meeting with him now. She wanted to speak to him before going to
the General with her many concerns regarding one Colonel Jack O'Neill. As he
entered her office he didn't smile or even greet her all he did was merely
inform her, "The General said that you...wanted to see me." Okay this
was definitely not good! She had to do something about this now and speaking to
him just might help bring the real Jack O'Neill back to the surface so she
answered, "Yes I did."
"Wh...why?"
"How
are you eating, Colonel?"
Jack
glanced at her in confusion caught off guard by her question, "How...how
am I eating? What the hell..."
"Please
answer the question."
"Janet
what the hell is this about?"
She
watched him knowing that he would be angry when she revealed the true reason
she was now meeting with him. She hesitated choosing to question, "How
have you been sleeping since...?"
"Since? What are you...? Daniel, you're asking me because of Daniel...son of a
bitch."
She
held his gaze for several long moments before quieting her voice and replying,
"Yes because of Daniel... Jack I need to keep an eye on you."
"Janet
I'm fine."
"Are
you? Jack your lover was abducted. We have had no leads on his location and
have heard nothing about him or his whereabouts. How can you sit there and tell
me everything's fine?"
"Because it is."
"Really? That's not what I've been hearing."
"What?
And just what have you been hearing Jan?"
He
was annoyed. She could see that and even hear it in his voice but she didn't
care because she had to discuss this very issue with him before it became a
major problem so she continued, "Jack, I can tell that you haven't been
sleeping and your last physical showed that you lost weight. You didn't
maintain and you didn't gain. You LOST weight, Jack... Sam says..."
Jack
glared at her in frustration before snapping, "Sam? Is she why I'm here?
What has Carter been saying...?"
"Colonel
there's no reason for you to get angry. She's worried about you and so is Teal'c..."
"Well
they don't have to worry because I'm FINE!"
Janet
continued to watch Jack intently refusing to back down. They needed to have
this discussion because if he didn't soon start showing some improvement she'd
have to go to the General. She sighed before continuing, "Look I don't
like to have these discussions but it is part of my job and I have to make you
aware that if you don't start showing improvement..."
"WHAT?"
he demanded. If he didn't start showing some improvement...what the hell was
she talking about? He tensed as he assured her, "I'm fine, Doc. No need to
worry. I'm fine, damn it!"
"Jack
this is very serious. You know what can happen when someone is lacking needed
rest. You know what can happen when you don't eat. You know what can happen.
You could become a risk to your team. Jack you are very good at concealing
weaknesses at work. You are very good at pretending Daniel's absence in your
life hasn't affected you at all but tell me just how many nights since his
disappearance have you awaken screaming his name? Feeling your heart pounding
so fast in your chest that you thought it was going to burst? How many times
have you spent the night pacing the halls or laying in bed staring at the
ceiling? How many times have you looked around the house and seen Daniel
everywhere but know he's gone? Jack I know you haven't been eating or sleeping.
I called you in here because I'm your friend and I want to help you, but if you
keep losing weight and losing rest I'll have no choice but to go to the
General. I don't want to do that but if I believe you have become a danger, a
risk to your teammates then I'll have no other choice."
He
was angry, hell he was outraged and frustrated and annoyed and just plain down
pissed off, but he knew what she was saying was right. He was prepared to lie
to her, to tell her that he is fine, that he's been sleeping just fine, that he
doesn't skip meals due to bouts of depression or spend hours curled up in bed
missing his lover. He wanted to tell her all that but he couldn't. Instead he
spoke barely above a whisper, "So what can I do about it?"
Janet
fell completely silent shocked that Jack even admitted he needed help. She was
so stunned that for a moment she didn't know what to say. Then she found her
voice, "I can prescribe some sleeping pills if you'd like. I can have Sam
and Teal'c keep an eye on you as well... You have got
to eat and you have got to sleep. I understand how you're feeling believe me I
do. You love him deeply and without him, without him your life feels empty,
meaningless...you feel unimportant. You don't feel comfortable or safe any
longer. You realize now how much he kept you grounded and kept you sane. You
need him but he can't get to you though I imagine he desperately wants to be in
your arms again. He's been gone awhile Jack and we have no knowledge of how
much longer he'll be...gone. I know that you desperately hope and pray for any
signs, any indications, that he is still alive and will return. I know all you
want is to have him back in your arms where he belongs and each day, each night
you turn to look for him, you reach out to touch him or to kiss him it shatters
you to see that empty space where he should be. I know you believe this is so
unfair and it is Jack it is but there is nothing we can do except keep
searching, keep hoping and praying, keep loving him and speaking to him even
when he's not here. Someday, someday he'll be returned to us, he will, but for
now we just have to wait."
Jack
inhaled shakily suddenly realizing that his cheeks were now damp. He blushed
when he realized that he shed tears at her words. He quickly brushed them away
thanking Janet for speaking with him. She assured him that he could speak to
her whenever he needed to and that together Sam, Teal'c
and she would help him through this. After their discussion Jack left her
office feeling a lot better than he had in weeks.
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